i had nv forgotten u r my gf.. in fact i had even fear like i m still holdin on e bag.. when i go into e air con place.. e feelin of fear n fear of being left alone inside and lookin at the worried loves one looking at u outside.. my hand r shivering.. n its realli shivering..
hav u feel e cold sweat keep coming from ur forehead and from ur whole body..
even until i swop e bag wif u.. e sweat jus dun stop.. e fear of u holdin e thing is e same as e feelin of mi holdin..i realli realli scare of things will happen.. i follow up closing behing u jus in case anything realli happen..
i put my wallet n handphone in the bag.. i m still tinkin wat if realli got caught.. can i jus admit tts my bag wif all e belongings of mine inside..
i nv blame on why mus all this happen.. i m jus scare.. i realli admit i m scare..
after my first incident.. my mum always told mi not to do anything tt will break e law due to our status here.. tts y all e way till now.. i dun dare to do any of such things again unless clearli noe nth will happen..
i noe apologised will nv save this situation anymore..
i can see e sadness n disappoinments in ur face when u r goin down e escalator..
till now i still havin e fear in my heart..
i realli cant imagine what will happen if realli got caught..

time..
if u realli nid it..
i will giv it..
some scars will nv heal.. some scars nid time to heal.. some scars nid love n understanding to heal..

past..
i can see our past also..
i can feel it n dream of it..
but i noe i can nv get it anymore..
our first smile in u n mine phone.. in our computers.. in our friendster.. in our facebook..
our smile in our last photo taken..
do we jus smile becoz of takin a photo.. or do we smile becoz we found each other till now..

i can feel ur tears.. even when i dun see it..
i can see ur heart is breakin.. even when i cant feel it..
becoz we r doin e same thing.. havin e same feeling..

do i still love u.. or do i jus too get used to hav u..
my ans is always e same as i first answered u..
if one person is jus gettin used of havin another one..
will he tear when he made her sad and smile when he did something tt make her happi..

do love realli can make u love e person as he is..
or
do love make u change e person to what u wan he to be..

all these will make us think a lot.. will make us grow and love each other more.. will make us grow and detest each other more..
if love is always one sided.. will it jus grow from one side and sink from e other side?
or will it make both realise on how to balance it..

all i wan to say.. is i love u.. i can nv promise such thing will nv happen again.. but i can onli promise i will nv make u feel tt way again.. will u also make a promise.. a promise of a call or a msg to mi.. when u hav used finish e time..