can i spell the word B O R I N G?i feel damn bored the whole day.nothing for the students to do.nothing for myself to do.sigh.cheryl came.haha.i super miss her can.even though i'm not close with her last time.but for the least i feel so comfortable gossiping with her now.hehe.my new favourite.remember to call me using charcoal phone ah.hee.i met up with baby last night.wasnt a good night ya.anyway i'm not going to talk bout it cause is really not a good night.went home straight after dinner.guess what was my first reaction when i step into the house.it was like OH MY GOD.is really dirty can.casue my house was undergoing the upgrading thing.i have to go down to my house toilet and bathe.no tv for me and also no sofa for me to lie around.sian la.will take down the photo for u to see how my house look like.oh yeah.i'm going for that conffin show tml!wee.happy la.but ah..my student told me is not nice sia.sure not..hmmx..baby.dont worry la.i know u dont like watching ghost show BUT u always seem to like ghost show each time u finish watching it.haha.is ok.i will protect u tml de.HAHA.ok la.i'm going to go back soon le.now i know the best place for me to rot in sch le.LIBRARY.hee.take care peeps.oh ya.J.B is back.i super miss talking to him.hehe.bye

I m realli v guilty today to make her cry again..
i suppose to protect her n make her happy instead she cried becoz of e way i handle things.
i will nv ever n ever do it again.
coz now i noe she is realli realli realli v hate mi do tt.

Po Po. Dun feel down anymore k?
i will realli nv ever do it again le.
jus now qk n gordon jio mi fri billard again.
i told them straight no le.
coz i noe tt day belongs to u means its u. n no other ppls.

Anyway i also wan to post a good news here.
i had became perm le.
startin from nov i will be workin 430 to 2 le.
timing looks quite stupid but i believe can earn more n more.
motive = earn money.
hee

nov comin soon le. dec faster come k?
coz i wan faster go holiday wif po po again.
hee

Po Po. Hope u like this new blog skin k?
i realli spend a little bit of time doin it de.
although e skin not i do one but is i choose one.
hee

Jia You Po Po! dun get bulli by those fatties n irraitin ppls anymore.
Mus Stand Up! and fight back them. Muack!
I will be givin u my courage n my strength. hee
although i dun hav much. but hope is enough.

Fri Fri Faster Come!
although i dun like to watch tt show but i will still watch for e sake of makin mi more brave.
haa

heard my mum said gmm went for operation again.the first thing was..what happen this time?she was talking to me that day and now..suddenly there's this urge that i feel like going back to see her.she is in kl now.i seriously dont mind going back alone.but i know my mum will object that.small aunt called.and she say her condition is stable now and ask my dad not to go back.god.she's my precious.you know how much i love her.please.she havent see finish the world yet.why must she undergo so much of this?i can feel that she is in pain now.please take away all her painfulness.god..i'm feeling very uneasy now.my heart is in a mess now.so much things happen.i feel like crying but i know i cant cry.i must learn to be strong.even when i'm in front of him.i must.gosh..tears rolled down my cheeks eventually.i dont wanna cry.gege say i must be strong.baby say he gets hurt whenever i cry.how?nothing must happen to her..please..

iris

Dear Fatty,

to be honest with u,i dont mind giving u back the scholarship and tearing away my contract.so what i got this scholarship without doing things that i like?u always say i got no choice,but to tell u the truth i do have.is just the matter of i want let go not.u made me cried badly today.i have never been scolded by anyone like this b4.i respect u and that's why i say u.i care for u and that's why i stop u from taking those things.if u really thinks that i cared the wrong way..then i'm afraid u dont know me well as ur student.u claim that u treated every SFT almost the same.but is that so?ask yourself this.yes.everybody has its diff characteristic.but is that the way u treated me?i cry is because u hurt my feeling.u said those unkind words to me.i cant help but kept on crying..i admit i'm a cry baby.but dont u think that u are too much today?so what i'm a SFT?so what i got that scholarship?it doesnt make me a special person.i dont ask for more but a fair treatment.u scolded zw today too.just because of a spoilt projector.is that the way a trainer should behave?are u sure we kept on irritates father?are u sure we talk rudely to the student?have u ever seen me and zw talking to the student?have u ever see how we ask them to do things?or have u seen how the student talk to us?if u are not with us,then dont talk cock with me.now i hated you.u no longer the one i respect.i wish that u will not appear in front of me anymore.like what mr johnny said.i'm a happy go lucky girl.i dont care much things.happy or sad i'm still iris.but today..u made things change.u really made me feel like quiting being a SFT.what's the point of continuing when u think that i cant do a nice job?if u really dont want to keep me then let me go..just let me go.iris is tired of being SFT.she is tired of treating ppl nice when ppl still complains about her...

failure iris.

just received a call from anthony.the first question that asked from him was..how's banquet sft?haha.and my replied was always the same.going to die soon.i guess is because he needed someone to scream at and that's why he called.we chatted for like 15 mins.we discussed mainly about the students that we came across.common thoughts ya.to fierce or not to be?to soft or not to be?millions of questions.i think mine is still not the worst but the outlets one..heard alot of stories from the students.but all i can say is..try to put urself in the SFTs shoes.we dont like to scold or gave nasty comments to u all one.but is out of no choice and that's why we got to do that.why would we scold or nasty to u?nothing better to do?it always starts with 2 hands.with one hand u think we can clap?we are all the same sch mates.we started the same time.and why would we want to make things difficult for u all?we are both on the same boat isnt it?so try to understand us.i know students dont like to comes banquet cause there are nothing for them to do.but no choice.no functions recently.and i guess for next week there will be lots of functions.so try to help banquet out k?we can be very nice to u all but first of all u muxt be nice to us too la.cannot everytime we nice then u all not nice la.like what i told w-----,after u show me attitude on that day,u think i'm feeling happy?i feel so lousy the whole day.u think being SFT is very fun?no.is not.we got our own stress too.like trainers gave us stress too.there are so much things for us to learn and we are still learning.so ya.this is all i want to say.i might not be soft anymore.if u guys still late for my banquet,i will still give DPs.cause u guys have been forgiven for too many times le..dont blame us k?
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love,do u know how much i missed you even though we get to meet each other that day?do u know why i wanted a necklace so much?cause i want to wear that to sch everyday.and whenever i misses u,i will touch it.is ok.next mnth i will get it de.love,i wish so much that i can hug u now and tell u,baby i misses u terribly.so much stress in sch and yet i didnt tell u cause i dont want u to worry.i miss u,my love,my baby,my yeye.and i promise no one will replace u even though there are lots of ppl entering my life each and everyday.i love u.我爱你。

with loves，
iris

So it was their 7th month anniversary and
the girl calls her boyfriend:

-Girl:
I love you.

- Boy:
Yeah I know everyone does!

-Girl:
Really?

- Boy:
Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls
tell me that everyday.

-Girl:
Oh...but am I only your friend?

- Boy:
No...you're my girlfriend...why?

-Girl:
So when I say I love you I really do mean it.

- Boy:
Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that
you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore
cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.

-Girl:
..........

- Boy:
So wanna go somewhere tonight
for our 7th month anniversary?

- Boy:
Yeah...where?

- Boy:
I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?

-Girl:
Ok.

- Boy:
Ill pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?

-Girl:
Ok. What time do you get off?

- Boy:
In 2 hours and then I gotta go home
and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 minutes...

-Girl:
hey...I thought you didnt have work today...

- Boy:
One of my co-workers called in sick.

-Girl:
Oh okay! So see you around 7:30 then?

- Boy:
Yeah! and babe?

-Girl:
Yeah?

- Boy:
I love you.

-Girl:
I love you too!

- Boy:
Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah....
i gotta go.

-Girl:
Ok bye.

- Boy:
Bye.


************************************************

2 hours later...

The guy drives to his girlfriend's house and
walks up to the door and rings the doorbell....

-Girl:
Hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)

- Boy:
Wadssup.....you ready?

-Girl:
Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?

- Boy:
Ok.

They both watched a movie and ate dinner...
once they were done eating, they headed back to the car but before she got into the car.......

- Boy:
Wait! Can I blindfold you?

-Girl:
Why??!?

- Boy:
Its a surprise..

-Girl:
What kinda surprise??

- Boy:
A big one.

-Girl:
Okay but only if you promise me tat you will hold
my hand while we're driving...

- Boy:
I promise.

-Girl:
Ok blindfold me.....

So they drove off.........and then they stopped....

- Boy:
Ok we're here!!
-Girl:
Where??

- Boy:
Wait let me walk you to the place!

-Girl:
What place??

- Boy:
Somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips..)

-Girl:
Baby!....

The boy walks her to the place....

- Boy:
Ok...let me take the blindfold off.

-Girl:
Where are we??

He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and
sees the view of the city and at tat same spot....
that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend....

-Girl:
Omg...! (tears rolls down)

- Boy:
Why are you crying?

-Girl:
This is where you first asked me out...

- Boy:
What are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...
behind him...in the air it says
'Will you marry me?' in fireworks)

-Girl:
(tears rolls down faster)

- Boy:
I wasn't at work when you called me...
I was planning this whole thing!

-Girl:
Get up!

- Boy:
Yeah?

-Girl:
(kisses him)


- Boy:
Is that a yes or a no?

-Girl:
Yes!

i m alive.. weeee

wednesday 8th october 2008

went to st james on wed.my first time.haha.didnt drink any alcohol cause my fellow friends know that i cant take any.somemore the next day i still gotta work.so..ya.basically,for the whole night i had 2 fruit juices only.cranberry and orange juice.please dont laugh at me k?hmmx..upon going that time i thought alot.to go or not to go.so what if i go?i guess things will still be the same even if i appear there.but thank god.eventually he created a miracle for me.i thought me and her would never be the same anymore.laugh loudly and gossip together.but..we did it that night.begining we were like quiet and never get to talk to each other much.but upon going home that time,things were different.haha.we craps like last time.gossip like last time.laugh and talk loudly like last time.i love that kind of feeling.is like i won the victory somehow.is this a dream or reality?i know somehow she has taken over me in ur heart but still i wish to be with you anytime when u needed someone to be with u.i promise.

thursday & friday 9th & 10th october 2008

nothing really happen on thurs is just that i'm super emotional on that day.gege came back to sch to pay his sch fees and then shun bian lai find me.touch huh.even though is shun bian.just want to say thanks gege.i will take ur words into my heart.until the last day of my attachment,it will no longer be endure but having fun throughout.overall u made me realise that it wasn't that bad to be in sch.at least i got to see chefs everyday.lol.that's all for thurs.fri will be like boring?haha.went to sch early cause got some coffee tea break.nearly get to fall afew times cause the apron was too long.sian.todays students were funny la.esp keith and nelson.haha.gay couple.make me laugh the whole day.nelson was in the same sec sch with me sia.haha.but i dont know him la.a funny guy.supposingly going to watch movie with cynthia today one.but no movies for us to watch la.so was cancelled.asked zw want go sing k..then asked casper along but he 8 something then fee.so cancelled too.so went home.at round 9 plus casper called and asked me to go city hall find him.i dont wish to go cause to me is like late le somemore i feel like sleeping at home than to go out.so i asked him to call zw see whether he is outside not.then mybe they can get to meet each other.for some reason i think he misunderstood what i say or he dont understand my chinese or whatever la.sorry.i'm pissed now.cause is not the first time he misunderstood me le.after 5 mins,he called back to me say zw will come out in 30 mins time.so ask me go and change and bla bla bla.i was like huh?i never tel you i want go out.i was just asking u to call and meet him.then u say i good la.and whatever shit.u got ur tantrum and so am i k?u want me to understand u then first of all can u understand me first not?and understand how i'm feeling rather than so harsh to me.i mean..ok.whatever.i dont know how to say le.is really angry when i'm been treated a few times.*ARGHH!!!i dont understand why i'm always the angry ones ah?why am i always the one then let ppl win?why ah?fcuk la!