i can still remember this sentence vividly in my mind..i was crying in front of u the very first week i join shatec.i told you i was scare that i will disappoint u by not doing a good job and this is the sentence u told me..u never failed to encourage me when i was down,upset with things around me.u are just like my real father..really a real father.i can still remember the day u scolded me badly in stewarding room.i didnt shed a tears cause i know u dont like and i understand that u wasnt in a good mood.at that point of time u said u want to throw me to chris loh and i pleaded u not to..u know i hated him lots and that's why u always gossip him in front of me.u taught me so much things..u taught me how to handle big functions..small functions..the students..and many many more.i know at times i always disappoint you..but believe me i never meant it.now u are gone..and i feel so empty out of a sudden.whenever there's a function in the morning,u will always come to the room and shout dumbies,where are you?i took a cab down today.reach sch around 7 plus..i sat at my fav chair waiting for the time to pass.suddenly feel so wierd.and i realise u have resigned and nobody will come to the room and ask for the dumbies.why dont u tell me urself?why didnt u answer when i asked do u have anything to tell me?all i wanted is to hear from u personally..i knew something is wrong with u on wed.u look extreme moody on that day and i even told u stupid chicken stories just to make u smile..and never did i know that that will be the last time i make u smile in sch..i wish it was a joke or nightmare from u to me..it might be another stage in life..but i just cant bring myself to face it..the moment u hug me that time,i cant help but to cry.the hug was so warm..and i know in ur heart u are crying too..i kept on convince myself to respect ur decision.and dont worry..i will try to..cause i know u love me and want me to become strong..dont worry about us k?i promise u that i will not disappoint u..and zacky too.go and have ur holiday..must enjoy k?u must be tired..i know..i will prayed hard to god.ask him to protect u wherever u go.dont forget me k?thanks for telling me that u love me deep deep..thanks..last of all..i love you.u are the greatest father in the world..
iris
