went to st james on wed.my first time.haha.didnt drink any alcohol cause my fellow friends know that i cant take any.somemore the next day i still gotta work.so..ya.basically,for the whole night i had 2 fruit juices only.cranberry and orange juice.please dont laugh at me k?hmmx..upon going that time i thought alot.to go or not to go.so what if i go?i guess things will still be the same even if i appear there.but thank god.eventually he created a miracle for me.i thought me and her would never be the same anymore.laugh loudly and gossip together.but..we did it that night.begining we were like quiet and never get to talk to each other much.but upon going home that time,things were different.haha.we craps like last time.gossip like last time.laugh and talk loudly like last time.i love that kind of feeling.is like i won the victory somehow.is this a dream or reality?i know somehow she has taken over me in ur heart but still i wish to be with you anytime when u needed someone to be with u.i promise.
thursday & friday 9th & 10th october 2008
nothing really happen on thurs is just that i'm super emotional on that day.gege came back to sch to pay his sch fees and then shun bian lai find me.touch huh.even though is shun bian.just want to say thanks gege.i will take ur words into my heart.until the last day of my attachment,it will no longer be endure but having fun throughout.overall u made me realise that it wasn't that bad to be in sch.at least i got to see chefs everyday.lol.that's all for thurs.fri will be like boring?haha.went to sch early cause got some coffee tea break.nearly get to fall afew times cause the apron was too long.sian.todays students were funny la.esp keith and nelson.haha.gay couple.make me laugh the whole day.nelson was in the same sec sch with me sia.haha.but i dont know him la.a funny guy.supposingly going to watch movie with cynthia today one.but no movies for us to watch la.so was cancelled.asked zw want go sing k..then asked casper along but he 8 something then fee.so cancelled too.so went home.at round 9 plus casper called and asked me to go city hall find him.i dont wish to go cause to me is like late le somemore i feel like sleeping at home than to go out.so i asked him to call zw see whether he is outside not.then mybe they can get to meet each other.for some reason i think he misunderstood what i say or he dont understand my chinese or whatever la.sorry.i'm pissed now.cause is not the first time he misunderstood me le.after 5 mins,he called back to me say zw will come out in 30 mins time.so ask me go and change and bla bla bla.i was like huh?i never tel you i want go out.i was just asking u to call and meet him.then u say i good la.and whatever shit.u got ur tantrum and so am i k?u want me to understand u then first of all can u understand me first not?and understand how i'm feeling rather than so harsh to me.i mean..ok.whatever.i dont know how to say le.is really angry when i'm been treated a few times.*ARGHH!!!i dont understand why i'm always the angry ones ah?why am i always the one then let ppl win?why ah?fcuk la!
