today is the 3rd day i'm struggling for my exam.2 more to go and i will be free from stress.jia you.today i received the biggest birthday present from my school.i'm not going to mention what is this here.i finally got it.and of course i feel very happy.but that is only短暂的快乐..seriously i've been asking myself so what you got it?does it make u a happy person?no.it does not at all.i called her once i part off with my sch mates.i wanted so much to share with her.i wanted her to be happy for me.i wanted her congrats.i wanted her to know i did it.but when i heard her saying..'orh'.my heart sank to the core.i know time has make us go apart.i miss her.i got so much to talk to her.i wanted to tell her..hey i miss u super much you know.i wanted so much to apologize to her saying i'm sorry for not spending time with you.i wanted so much to meet her up for gossiping..i wanted so much to hug her saying you will be fine.you got me right..that is what i wanted so much..i failed in maintaining my friendship with her.i've failed badly.so what i'm the top 3 in class?so what i did flying colors for my exam?i'm not happy at all.i'm not..i hate what i am now.i hate.why am i not the first to be with her when she is sad?why????i miss her god..