Dalton & Iris

2010-09-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

Where were you when I needed ur concern?
Where were you when I'm crying alone at the mall?
Why isnt you around just when I needed you the most?
Is not ok. and seriously is not ok at all..

ITS GENTING TIME!!!

2010-04-08T16:21:00.006+08:00

weee
1 year past so fast
we went genting last year 09/03/09 - 12/03/09

and this time we r going again!
and its 1 yr 1 mth later
haa

realli miss e air and e cloud there ohh
and drinkin e starbucks in e cold air
song ah!

po po ohh
lets relax urself there k?
and forget all e stress here
muack!

rmb this pix? haa

Genting wo lai ye! huat ah! :)

OMG Chinese New Year TIME!

2010-02-12T03:55:00.004+08:00

OMGGG
so fast its going to be chinese new year again when i am going to be alone at SG again!
haa
po po goin msia in less dan 24 hrs time
yi lu shun feng k?
rmb to call mi ah!
and win more money!!
huat ah!

wish everyone who viewing our blog happy chinese new year. xin nian kuai le!

New year.New resolution.

2010-01-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

oopsie!i havent been blogging for long.just to update a little of what i have done so far:-

got Iphone from baby as my anniversary present.
clearer picture of what i want in 2010.
FINALLY resignation letter has been submitted to Boss on the 15th January. official last day will be on the 29th January. and this is no joke.

people tend to ask me whether i will regret with my decision, and my ans is no.i learned lots of things from there.i've changed to a person that i myself dont even know who i am. is time to bid goodbye to the place that dont belongs to me at all. for the least is time.moving on is what i aim in year 2010.dont ask me what is my resolution as there are too many to be list down. and i guess the main one will be to find myself back with the smile that i have lost long ago..

Regards,
Iris. <3

new year. new resolution. new dream.

2010-01-04T01:30:00.002+08:00

2010 le
3 yrs realli past without waiting one
many many many things had happened and past by our life
lets leave behind all e unhappi and all the unfulfilled dreams.
and make a new dream together

my new yr resolution and dream for this yr is
- get my driving license by june
- save enough to go taiwan by june
- get a new job also ard june
- save more money and stop using credit card
- pass my ippt (haa this one realli req a lot a lot discipline)

po po
u mus put down ur new resolution and dream okie?
and we will work hard towards our dreams :) (Together)

2009 :)

2009-12-18T11:26:00.002+08:00

so fast..
jus a wink another yr past le
lets hav e best christmas eve together k?
muack!

will there be an ans?

2009-12-15T17:15:00.001+08:00

Iris says:
sigh
Iris says:
somthing happen again
Sia says:
..
Sia says:
wat happen ohh
Sia says:
???
Sia says:
work?
Iris says:
yapp
Iris says:
sigh
Iris says:
i'm tired.
Iris says:
mind and soul are in weary state
Sia says:
haiz
Sia says:
its realli time soon
Sia says:
po po lean on mi k?
Sia says:
get tired in work
Sia says:
but dun get tired on mi ohh
Iris says:
i'm really tired.
Iris says:
had no idea what is the next step to walk
Sia says:
i feel tt sometimes if realli lost
Sia says:
it means its time to take a break n hav a good tots le
Sia says:
sometimes when u keep try to tink
Sia says:
will nv get e answer one
Sia says:
lets go for a holiday and may be u can find e answer there
Iris says:
sigh
Iris says:
will the ans be out after the holiday?
Sia says:
no promise
Sia says:
but higher chance
Iris says:
haha
Iris says:
thanks

hopefully like what u say...

Iriss

am i really that lousy?

2009-12-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

after hearing u say all those..i thought to myself with the tears flow out..am i dragging u down?am i really that kind of person who never thought of upgrading herself?am i really such a loser?i know..these is what others say/commenting.but it just cant stop me from being angry.i'm not upset but likewise i'm angry.i know u are feeling angry and also upset with me..but baby,do u know my heart hurts when i cant be ur perfect valentine?we have argued for countless times.ppl often say sit down and have a good chat.but will that help us?how many times we have sat down and have a talk?countless too?tell me..what am i suppose to do to save this relationship of ours?tell me what am i suppose to do to cease all these arguement?u feeling tired,arent you?i'm sorry to make you feel tired...i'm tired too...and i no longer can find the smile that i use to have 3 years back..not anymore..

is letting go a good solution to cease ur tiredness?
if it is,let me know..
i'm prepared for all..
when i longing for a person to held on, no one was there...
the feeling sucks isnt it?

i m glad :)

2009-11-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

i believe its both of us also feel glad.
but i realli v happi to hav her back.
hope everyone will cont to treasure watever infront of u and not treat it for granted. :)

happy events :)

2009-11-25T13:45:00.006+08:00

few more days to 2 mths nv blog le.
po po always say i onli blog when unhappy things happen.
its true
although things r happenin again
but i m not bloggin them anymore.
coz i feel that this blog shd contains happi stuff so when look back, we will smile together and not feelin a needle pokin our heart again n again.

ermm last mth nt much happens
had went to start my learnin car journey lo
hee
till now had passed my final theory evaluation le
jan goin to start learnin driving car le!
i still hope before june can get the licsence coz i wan to bring her to places that we hav no chance to go always

ermm
had went to steamboat wif her frens
quite a nice gatherin coz dey r all v v frendly

the 2 ben ben de us. got slim down a not?

e 6 of us. they r all v nice ppls :)

po po had went to her school that she wanted to start her studies again
she said its a v nice place ohh
but nv bring mi there b4
i will go there explore one day
hee
hope she can study well and make more frens there
but i noe she will be v tired
hope i can still be there to support her :)

another big big event is shu ning wedding
she is po po's biao jie
she abt my age one ohh
and they r e first couple who saw us together one
i rmb e 3 yrs ago when we first met, its realli v v sweet
and that groom who we always call ah hua tian(ovaltine) is a nice guy too
haa i jus cant forget how we met 3 yrs ago
realli unforgetable memories

ermm k share some photos
can find more at facebook

bride(ah hua tian) and groom(shu ning)

po po and me :)

po po and biao yi, with mi extra behind

us again :)

ermm got ah heng and po po's bro, jia jin
den got po po's cousin, da mei(i tink if nt wrong her name is yen jing ba) and popo's another small cousin call xiao mei.

po po zhen de man mei de :)
but i also quite shuai ohh haa

onli the sling bag is mine!
others all r the sign of bullies but e 2 girls.

ermm tt day was quite fun although quite tiring
hee nx yr got more ang bao lo! if everything went well..

nid to go prepare go work le.
will cont to blog more when got time and when not lazi.

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”

if ur mind tells u to give up.. may i ask if ur heart also feels e same..?

Smile Again..

2009-09-29T03:22:00.003+08:00

i noe no matter wat i say..
everything is not gonna change
but i realli hope n wish n pray u will smile again.
although its a small quarrel.. but i m feelin realli bad abt it..
all started becoz of my bad habit..

call me tml k?
no overnite grudge..
still rmb wat i told u when i jus noe u and met u?
when we start to quarrel e first few times?
anything unhappi dun hold until tml k?
tell mi n speak to mi..
i m slow..
i admit many things i cant handle well..
esp when it comes to ur feelin..
smile when u see this blog k??
lets share together wat nid to be changed and wat to add on k?
i mean for this blog..

po po:
u r like tt. i m like tt too.
lets accept each other for who we are and how we are k?
i noe u dun like quarrel
nobody like it
so smile again n call mi k?
:)
rmb dun take cab to work ahh
although i got a feelin u will be doin so later morning.
haa
but try to control for e day after k?
and rmb to go poo poo..
and drink more water.
i dun niam u le.. i becomin more n more ye ye le.. haa..

wan an
i love u

dalton

Happy birthday Dalton!

2009-09-07T23:40:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd birthday boy.may all your wishes come true.(:

Iris

i detest.

2009-08-27T12:57:00.003+08:00

for some reason i really dont like today. is not that someone upset me or whatever. is just that the feeling of doing nothing sitting in front of the com staring at it is totally a piss. shifting to green is good. the whole environment is so much better than nobel. the people here is good. but just that i dont have things to do in green. is not like in nobel whereby i'm doing all the shit thing alone. and yes i mean ALL shit things. but right now in green, i dont. cause diff shits there is diff ppl in handling. sigh. look.. i even have time to blog. so imagine. i'm sorry that i complain so much but is just that i dont like the way i am now. i prefered the busy days whereby i dont even have time to go toilet..oh gosh. busy days pls come back. oh ya. one thing i should comment bout green is the environment is really good. i felt so comfortable when i'm at there.

i know is abit random but i seriously must say i miss the them (xue fen,duncan,irritating & ah mok.)

Iris

cheer up girl :)

2009-08-26T00:57:00.004+08:00

ben po po ohh
sorry todae shouted at u
i not wantin to show off or wat
i jus suddenli feel a bit pek cek
but i realli dun like e last thing tt u said tt make mi realli angri
bu yao zhai compare wo le k?

sha gua
2 more wks i bring u we go enjoy relax ourself k?
a simple n enjoyable bdae is always wat i wanted de
with u by my side i m realli happi le.

still rmb last yr u said u still owe mi a present ohh
ji de ma?
hee
jus look forward to tt day k?
although its my bdae but we will enjoy it together ohh
lets try harder oh our aims k?
our aims meaning e purpose of wat we done todae ohh

try not to look at those belows!
and not say eat ah.
kan also cannot!
zhi dao ma?

*credits to google images*

Po po ohh.
i tink its time to change this blog skin le
i go find some nice nice de let u choose k?
muack!
4 days wun be see-ing u so dun miss mi ohh.
and rmb last time wat i told u :)
no point angri over ppls when dey r not even caring abt it.
control n relax n CHEER UP!

Should i?

2009-08-16T11:42:00.001+08:00

Should i go or should i not?
i think i'm going.
cause i wanna be there and let you know i truly loves you.
wait for me..

popo

e last piece..

2009-08-16T03:17:00.003+08:00

i rmb in e past..
i always say i will nv make u tear again..
but once n once n once n once again..
u cried becoz of mi..

i rmb once..
i said i will protect u..
but once again i failed to do so..

sorry is e word tt i nv want to say to u..
but i m repeating it again n again..

16/08/09..
its sunday..
i will be at e place u last mention to me tt u wan to go..
i will be there
waitin for u..

it might be stupid..
it might seems to be stressing u..
but i hope i can help u find e last piece there..

even if it does not fit in e puzzle..
i noe time will allow mi to fill it up completely.
giv mi one more chance..
giv mi jus one more chance to heal e scar tt i had caused in u..
one last chance to be ur ye ye..

我想要牵着你的手，一直往前走。好吗婆婆?

i need time to find the last piece..

2009-08-15T14:12:00.003+08:00

this few days alot of things tend to happen.it consist lots of mixed feelings and questions.i dont know what's the next step in this relationship..holding ur hand is something can make me realise the road is still long.and i dont think i can walk the rest of the road by myself..though things went back to its pace.but i guess i still need time to re adjust myself cause is not easy to forget what has happened.forgive me that.i know u are trying ur very best to save this relationship..i can see and sense.i'm sorry..is just that i really need time to find the feelings back...

iris

jia you!

2009-08-13T13:22:00.003+08:00

waitin.. standing.. walking ard..
i can realli feel so nervous like e first time we met..
i hav tot of few sentence to say but upon see her..
all words jus disappear le.
holdin her hand without sayin anything..
i can realli feel tt without her i will nv noe wat to do anymore.
i realli miss her..

hee
i bought her 2 small gifts
i tink its e first time i buy her a soft toy
haa
although its small
but i hope she like it

todae is thurs le
po po yest hav bad headache
and todae ok le but still hav a lot of work to do
yao jia you ohh
work can nv finish one
so take good care of ur health k?

e movie tt u wan to watch is out todae le
吓到笑
we will go watch it together k?

dreams..

2009-08-11T12:29:00.002+08:00

i had a dream last nite..
a dream tt i hope i wun wake up from it..
but its impossible..
my handphone ring at 725am..
e time tt i set when i was still wif her..
i almost smash my hp..
i realli hate it as it jus smash my dream..
i try to go back to it again but it jus nv come anymore....

can e scar be healed..

2009-08-11T03:44:00.003+08:00

can e scar be heal..
can i be e medicine for it..

some scars will nv heal..

2009-08-10T02:33:00.006+08:00

i had nv forgotten u r my gf.. in fact i had even fear like i m still holdin on e bag.. when i go into e air con place.. e feelin of fear n fear of being left alone inside and lookin at the worried loves one looking at u outside.. my hand r shivering.. n its realli shivering..
hav u feel e cold sweat keep coming from ur forehead and from ur whole body..
even until i swop e bag wif u.. e sweat jus dun stop.. e fear of u holdin e thing is e same as e feelin of mi holdin..i realli realli scare of things will happen.. i follow up closing behing u jus in case anything realli happen..
i put my wallet n handphone in the bag.. i m still tinkin wat if realli got caught.. can i jus admit tts my bag wif all e belongings of mine inside..
i nv blame on why mus all this happen.. i m jus scare.. i realli admit i m scare..
after my first incident.. my mum always told mi not to do anything tt will break e law due to our status here.. tts y all e way till now.. i dun dare to do any of such things again unless clearli noe nth will happen..
i noe apologised will nv save this situation anymore..
i can see e sadness n disappoinments in ur face when u r goin down e escalator..
till now i still havin e fear in my heart..
i realli cant imagine what will happen if realli got caught..

time..
if u realli nid it..
i will giv it..
some scars will nv heal.. some scars nid time to heal.. some scars nid love n understanding to heal..

past..
i can see our past also..
i can feel it n dream of it..
but i noe i can nv get it anymore..
our first smile in u n mine phone.. in our computers.. in our friendster.. in our facebook..
our smile in our last photo taken..
do we jus smile becoz of takin a photo.. or do we smile becoz we found each other till now..

i can feel ur tears.. even when i dun see it..
i can see ur heart is breakin.. even when i cant feel it..
becoz we r doin e same thing.. havin e same feeling..

do i still love u.. or do i jus too get used to hav u..
my ans is always e same as i first answered u..
if one person is jus gettin used of havin another one..
will he tear when he made her sad and smile when he did something tt make her happi..

do love realli can make u love e person as he is..
or
do love make u change e person to what u wan he to be..

all these will make us think a lot.. will make us grow and love each other more.. will make us grow and detest each other more..
if love is always one sided.. will it jus grow from one side and sink from e other side?
or will it make both realise on how to balance it..

all i wan to say.. is i love u.. i can nv promise such thing will nv happen again.. but i can onli promise i will nv make u feel tt way again.. will u also make a promise.. a promise of a call or a msg to mi.. when u hav used finish e time..

things no longer like last time..

2009-08-09T20:13:00.003+08:00

looking at the ring on my hand..memories tend to flash back.that was the first ring u given to me.and i still can remember those expression our face.happiness.but now when i looking at it..i dont seems to found the happiness feeling..have we all change or was it me who kept changing?i dont know..i dont know why today's incident makes me think so much.what if i was being send to the room and when i come out what will you do?keep saying sorry to me?or say i shouldnt have swop with you?i know the fear in you..but i just cant think much when we act swop the bag.i'm ur gf.have u act forgotten bout it?i dont know what to say when we are out of the custom..是爱再让我们持续着还是习惯？i dont want a call from you to say i'm sorry or neither do i want to see you in front of me..i really dont want..i think maybe we should give each other some time to think what we want act..shall we?i dont know how u will feel when u see this..but pls understand why i'm doing so...

iris.

For you,zacky.my buddy.

2009-07-18T16:25:00.004+08:00

a mini gathering we had for Zacky.my good buddy going botak very soon.and i really hope he can tahan thru the 2 years life in army.bro..the most imp part is not bout how u struggle thru but the most imp is enjoy the whole process k.and that's when u learn and grow up.take care bro.and we will meet up soon.*ps.more of this gathering pls.(:

iris

I Will

2009-07-09T03:44:00.002+08:00

I will hug you.. I will kiss you on your forehead.. I will listen to your cries and make you smile again.. I knew you were tired.. I know you nid a rest.. lets promise one another.. when e time is ready.. we will go for a long holiday together.. only you and mee.. lets hav a short getaway this weekend.. although its short.. but i hope u will enjoy it.. I luv u.. And I will always be there for you..

Po Po..
Please smile again..
I realli luv ur smiles ever since i met u..
Listen to e song..
Dedicated for you..

Connie Talbot: Smile

Smile,
Tough your heart is aching
Smile,
Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile
Through your fears and sorrow, smile
And maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile,
What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worhwhile,
If you just smile.

will you?

2009-07-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

i need your hug to secure my heart.i need a kiss from you on my forehead to rest assured things will be fine for me.baby..i'm crying out loud through my heart..can you hear?how long more can i go on like this?i'm tired.i have no one but left you..i no longer want to carry on walking this road..take me away will you?please...

iris

happy birthday iris.(:

2009-06-24T00:24:00.002+08:00

happy 21st bdae to myself!!!!hoping a better year ahead!(:

sundayy

2009-05-31T17:18:00.004+08:00

hmm..normally what will ppl do on a hot sunday?going out with friends?or watching tv?haha.guess what i did on this super hot sunday?i cleaned my room k..ya..your eyes are not playing a trick.and i really did cleaned my room..well..maybe is not very tidy or what so ever..but i did try k?pictures can tell.....

this cupboard is ultimate very messy the begining but now..neat le!

i will try to tidy this table again.let it be for the time being first.

see..is neat right?

this bed act got alot of things de..but now is empty!

put my bag to the original place.

ok. must say this.this one is very dirty in the begining.but now is clean...

see..neat and tidy le k?

err..i must say sorry to mum.while i mop half way,the stick broken.think too old le la.that's why will broke.haha.

that's all.

iris

REVIVAL of dalton n iris blog!

2009-05-23T04:14:00.002+08:00

hee
saw po po blog le
i got a bit of motivation to blog too le
although many of her post r not related to mi de
my posts almost all r abt her one lo
hump
anyway.
todae is saturday!
tml is sunday! and its 24th.
Its our 29th month anniversary!!
although we nv realli celebrate everytime n i always forget to tell her HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
but now i m goin to tell tt to her earli!
hee
Happy anniversary po po!
29 months r not easy to pass if without u
29 months r nv hard to pass when i had u
i love these 29 months
and many many more months tt r waiting for mi n u

Although i dun hav any good plan for this sunday.
but lets jus hav a simple day den simple dinner n simple movie on tt day k?

its too mushy to tell u something here.
So lets wait for mi to tell u personally on tt day okie?
hee

MUACK!

and jiayou for ur tt fren also too. gambate!

i will pray hard for u.

2009-05-21T20:44:00.002+08:00

i know there's alot of things tend to happen to you this few days..there's nothing that i can do to help you.but all i can do is to cry with u,talk to u,acc u...pardon me that i was too tired recently..but still i hope that everything will be alright for ya..always remember that it take 2 hanbds to clap.so ya..i will pray hard for u de.jia you my fren.

iris

i'm sad

2009-05-19T11:43:00.000+08:00

Iris felt so helpless and she teared.. is not the first time she made such a silly mistake. When u realized everyone is starting to blame on u, u just feel like running away. No one is there to help.. no one..

iris

friends?

2009-04-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

why do u have to say those things when i'm not that kind of person?do u know it is not the first time u gave me this kind of shit?u call this friends when u did this to me?i had enough of u.is not the first time.just fcuk off k?

iris

感触

2009-04-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

有时候人就是那么奇怪。。拥有的时候却不懂得珍惜。而等到失去的时候却在那里后悔。。很可笑吧？对啊，这就是人的本性。改不掉的。。回想起工作的第一天，一直哭诉为何是我？为何那么的不公平？想起来，真的很可笑。那时的我真的恨不得能快点结束一切。。明天就是我放上句号的时候了。。感觉很舍不得吧。毕竟我都熬过了这六个月。。看透了一切的一切。是时候挂上句号了。是时候和学校说再见了。。谢谢曾经与我工作的人。我会记得你们对我的好。。这六个月的回忆会永远烙印在我心里。。

惠婷

我相信找不到有比你更好的人

2009-03-20T03:15:00.004+08:00

Back from holiday and had worked for the past 5 days.
Po po also had worked for e past 2 days and after todae finally can rest for wkends le.

Genting is a nice place and seriously a nice place to escape from all e stress n tiredness.
Playin all the fun rides and e exciting one seriously makes mi wan to go again n again.
po po surely also hav e same feeling de.
haa
first time gamblin wif po po in casino is also very very memoriable.
after 2 - 3 tries finally enters e casino
haa

Taken a lot of photos but will post some only coz all these r e nicest!!

The Clouds there r realli super duper nice! Can watch e clouds for hours also wun sian de.

Thats the place we lived at. haa e cheapest but comfortable hotel.

Caught on bed! haa
the lollipop i eatin is super big n got bubble gum inside de! nice!

Thats us while havin supper at starbucks.

Midnite eatin cheesecake n drinkin hot chocolate! BEST!.

One of the cheapest meal there. MARY BROWN!

ATM wif no atm machine.

Haa finish for pix le.
all those r pix in my phone
po po also got quite a number in her camera.

After back from genting is really killer.
Become super moody b4 e day goin to work.
maciam still feel like goin gentin again immediately.
arrr
when is e nx holiday! june!!

po po ah.
the topic is for u de.
seriousli.
watever u feel n tink these few days is also wat i been tinkin too
hao xiang kuai dian jian dao ni oh
muack!
u r e BEST po po!
hee

slppy le.
tml goin out wif qk dey all le.
2-3 wks nv see le
lol
meet first ting cfm tio kan and tio suan one
haa

slp lo.
Good nite po po!

CLOUD CLOUD WE LOVE U!

2009-03-09T00:59:00.002+08:00

Weeee
We r goin to e clouds lo!!
hee

e stupidest picture i ever made
haa
i dunno how to photoshop so i use powerpoint to make de
cute ma??

will be back this thursday!
enjoy everyone! :)

i didnt change.

2009-03-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

也许对你们来说，我真的变了。。但我想说的是，我一点都没变。我只是累了而已。。因为我都一直带着面具做人。我一直告诉我自己，用真诚的一面来面对一切。顺其自然。。但我做不到！因为太多的绊脚石在我的前方。。使我根本无法顺利前进！好累！有谁能了解我此时此刻的心情？有谁能够告诉我，：‘惠婷，你行的。加油！’有谁又能上前给我个拥抱说：‘我明白你的心情。没事的。一切都会过去的。。’有谁又能够。。。唉。。上帝啊！我真的累了。。真的累了。。

iris

Po Po hui lai lo!!

2009-02-25T03:54:00.006+08:00

hallo everybody
my dearest po po is coming back lo!
although still no chance to meet her but hee
hen kai xin she is comin back le
coz it will not hav e feeling she is v far away
i always forget to say happi anniversary sia!
den i say le she always nv say to mi de!
bu gong ping de lo

Weeee
Official announcement of our Genting trip!
We r going to chu fa on the 9th of march 2009 1030pm to 12th of march 2009 3pm!
will be reachin sg ard 9pm i tink.
realli cant imagine suddenli so far we plan n already booked le
haa
hao kai xin!

Pictures Pictures Time!
~~Valentine Day~~

~~My Cute Little Plant~~

~~Poladroid Pictures~~

Interested to know how to do this Poladroid pictures ma?
hee jus click here

dear v.....

2009-02-19T22:28:00.004+08:00

thanks for remembering me.really appreciated.i hope u are doing well..jia you with ur examination.i know u can do it de.(:

for that particular person out there:
even if i die,i will make sure that i come and haunt u every night.watch ur back.i might give u a hard stab one day.mind my words and i mean it.

iris

happy birthday dude!

2009-02-17T22:58:00.004+08:00

life recently sucks ya.well guess what..i'm not going to be bothered anymore.cause what for i cared so much ended up things are still the same?what for..people dont appreciate and they only think that u are spoiling their bloody mood.no more again.once shattered forever shattered.too stress to think so much le..i just had to convinced myself that there are things just beyond my control.i'm not a robot.cannot think or worry so much..so let it be bah.反正没有人会了解你的用意。just hope time will eventually flies ya.cant wait for my leaves to arrive.cant wait!

happy 19th birthday zacky!haha.finally u are 19th..wahaha.last teen of ur teenage life.must enjoy today k?no lover also can celebrate de.best wishes from me to u ya?take care of urself esp ur knees k?enjoy ur ''MC'' leaves ya.haha.oh ya..u really a great fren or should i say buddy to me.love ya.(:

oh ya.my cousin is coming to my house to stay tml.yes man!haha.got to go folks.(:

iris

(:

2009-02-13T20:16:00.003+08:00

Gabriel said:"Iris,you finally smiled.."

indeed..i smiled.happy advance valentine's day.

iris

time flies..

2009-02-05T20:57:00.005+08:00

i could still remember that the first day i joined banquet as sft.i guess it was a disaster for both me and zacky.haha.the days seem to be so hard to pass.but guess what..we are going to graduate soon.43 days.wohoo..终于啊。。to think of it now..i quite 舍不得学校的一切。。esp mdm hamidah.ever since father left us,she never failed to take care of me and zacky.she will always tried her best to make us laugh.we were sad during that period of time..but she never failed to encourage us.she's just like a mother to us.haha.one more thing.her ''tibits'' stire.hahahahaha..love the food there.(:sigh..time flies man..flies until i didnt get a chance to see through everything..hmm..43 days only..must treasure the days..looking for jobs recently.cause i need it in may!!must work and save up more money for further study..must must must!!!okok.shant talk le.pictures k?

iris

YAO HUI LAI LO!!

2009-01-27T14:23:00.004+08:00

Weee
sat mahjong mahjong poker poker
sun work work work
mon billard billard mahjong mahjong
finally tues le
my family coming back lo!
and po po is coming back tml le!
haa
hao xiang hao xiang everyone
esp e sha gua
faster faster come back ah!
alone when open my eyes everyday... alone when close my eyes everyday...
its really very very very sianz la!
although got frens to play mj n go out.
but i realli hope everyone faster come back ah
ermm
let mi post the pictures for our biggg winner of $250 within 10 mins at 6:20am.

'In Between'
tts the game introduced by our goat.
haa every 10 mins e money can change v v v differently.
from $2.50 within 10 mins = $250
cool?
hee although i won $150 still but not from this game.

tt nite is quite havoc. 4pm play tilled 630am.
quite fun n tiring
haa
slp n wake up = work le.
morning eat big breakfast, afternoon eat 1 mac-chicken burger. night eat prosperity meal.
haa

mon billard at nite n mahjong till 5+am.
n now tues.
po po shd be at jusco again shoppin le!
hao xiang be beside her.
shop shop eat eat drink drink ~~slp slp~~ together!
haa
ermm hope tonite got billard again.
and family goin come home soon le.
weee
sure got a lot nice nice msia stuff to eat le.

CNY holiday goin to be over soon le
tml work n thurs goin meet my dearest missing-est po po lo!
weee
still haven tot of wat to buy for her mum sia
mus go shop on e day le.

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone.
Gong Xi Fa Chai!
money money 滚滚来!!!
weeee

goodbye.

2009-01-23T14:32:00.001+08:00

i'll be leaving in half an hour time.feeling very relieve.is like finally..take care everyone.will be back next week.please take care of urself when i'm not with u k?muackx(:

happy chinese new year.

iris

i m alone.. ! .. ! ccccchineeseee neeeeww YEAR!

2009-01-23T03:39:00.003+08:00

CNY!!
i m alone...... !!!!
lolz
both sad n happy feelings
po po goin back fuyong n my family goin back ma po to eat e to fu there.
haiz
left me alone in sg..
haa actualli is bo bian..
sunday hav to work coz unable to take leave de
but got mon tues n thur leave le
good good
time to enjoy CNY!
ermm but e po po ah
u can eat but dun anyohow keep eat eat eat ah!
i hav taken ur photo yest b4 u go back.
when u come back i will take another photo to compare!
hee
i quite worry abt u coz u always bu ting hua de.
this time new yr mus ting ye ye de hua ok?
eat can eat but dun anyohow eat!
i also wun make u worry de
i drink will drink but wun anyohow drink de
hee
so fast cny le
still rmb last yr cny i still rmb po po bought e xia jiang mee and e 2 red red cracker wif sweets de.
haa
den we keep worry how to take n bring to each other hse.
po po
1 yr you past le.
i realli thanks u for being by my side and make me feel i m so happy everytime goin out wif u.
Xie Xie NI!
wo ai NI!
hav a good cny n rmb to come back n be my sha sha de po po okie?
hee
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! :)
rmb to collect more ang bao oh!

running away is all i can do..

2009-01-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

how long more do you want me to run away from you?i supposed whenever u see me running away,u feel ultimate happy right?thanks.u did it.you've made iris running away like a fool each time she sees you.she is feeling like a complete idiot and fool in front of you and ur buddies.thanks huh..

iris

ponyo ponyo ponyo(:

2008-12-29T22:04:00.002+08:00

it marks the new begining for me in banquet today.new batch of students.i thought the new batch will be diff to handle but i guess Ee Le prove me wrong.haha.he's one of the DHM's student that was being attach to banquet today.supposingly 2 students should report to banquet but the other one MIA!anyway lots of things came back from rosette.is way lots!i didnt really help much cause all are heavy stuffs.lucky zacky and Ee Le are MEN!a big thanks to the two of them.we ate alot today and yet we work alot.(:cheers!should i sign up for that scholarship?went with Ee Le to get the application form.act we agreed to sign up together de.but i got no confident this time le.should i or should i not?confused le.10 thousand leh..ah yoh!i want upgrade but hor..dont know la.messy!okok.got to stop here le.heh heh.

i miss everyone in DHM408C.(i know is abit random but i really miss them.)esp their lame shits!!!<3haha.

iris

等待。

2008-12-28T19:42:00.003+08:00

我到底在执着什么？我到底想要什么？友情不就是我一直在期盼着吗?那为什么我都一直在拒绝着？是因为累了吗？还是因为我寻找的答案一直都没出现。。所以使我越来越没有信心了。我不知道现在要的是什么但我唯一知道的是，我什么都不想去面对。。等待是我曾经会盼望的事但如今的我不会了。。

iris

U R NOT ALONE

2008-12-27T02:54:00.008+08:00

ermm
po po..
u r not alone lo!
and u r nv alone!
let mi post e pictures i taken first..
all these r taken on e christmas day. *wif my new fone* hee
hee guess where we went?

my left and my right!

This is a far far place oh! (a bit further a bit further den can reach one)

$6 bic

the CAN is SAME SIZE as HER. hee

e drink is goin to pour on them!

I LOVE MY BIKE

Its quite a tiring day but i really enjoyed it.. i realli love cycling wif po po n her bro as its v fun n will make me feel like goin back to childhood.
Although we had a few conflicts on tt day.. but i realli apologised for some words i used.. as dey nv went tru my big brain when i said out.. realli sry
but i realli hope its a enjoyable day for u.. muack!

Today went to work
had saw a few presents on my table n dey r realli cute n nice
although i had not bought any present to return back.. but i decided to buy lot lot of tibits to giv everyone.

This is bought by my Team Leader mr THOMAS!
haa he is a nice guy who pushed mi n helped mi a lot. tts y i m realli thanksful to him.

It looks very angri when u pressed on it. haa

the back one is from my team member ai ling, left from wei xian my buddy and right from mei feng.
I realli love all these presents. hee

OK. Now back to main topic..
Po po..
i realli hope to see a happi po po wif no worries and no troubles.
everytime i see u unhappi.. i realli will feel unhappy too.
when u r happy, i will also start to smile again..
but no matter how unhappi u r.. i also will try to find ways to make u happi again coz u r my one n onli po po..

Todae u told mi on e fone one thing.. but i realli hope after i say this.. u will understand it..
"No one in this world needs another one to live on.. But its whether he/she will feel blessed n happy when he/she lives on.. No one in this world will always be happy.. But its whether he/she wants to be happy.."

Good nite po po.. i realli realli hope tt e first voice i hear when i wake up is ur voice..
and u r nv alone..

Merry christmas everyone who visted this blog. And a happy new year. May all ur wishes come true. i hope mine will come true too.

lonely

2008-12-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

i ask for no one else even if i'm feeling lonely..

iris

ignorance

2008-12-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

nothing really happen today.except that b..... came back to sch today.i didnt realise that until zacky told me.should i avoid him or just treat it normally?well.i choose to avoid than to have contacts with him.cause i guess ignorance will be the best solution for us.heard that he has a gf now.good for him though.hope he wont play the trick of telling other girls that he likes her.enough of him i guess.hmmx..had a talk with jasmine ho.looking at her is how i looked at myself in the past.having the same situation as her last time.holding on to that guy when i know that there won't be any possibilities btw us.what i got in the end was sadness.1 year..it took me exactly 1 year just to forget everything even though the rela was less than a month.what i want to say is..dont bring regrets to u and him.before u trust what people said bout him,ask urself,do u trust him?he is the one that u deeply in love with.and u should be the one who understand him well than other people does.do u think u are selfish by not sparing a thought for him?i guess right now..all he needed from u was trust and understand..letting go might hurt but it definitely bring u and him far..i'm sorry to comment so much when i'm just an outsider..but i really hope u guys will still be friend afterall..take care and sorry for all the comments.

2 more days to our 2 years.i love u (:
iris

new phone!

2008-12-21T18:31:00.002+08:00

i love my new phone.
and it simply represent a new begining.(:
and last of all..i simply love him.

i will be ur lucky star to give u a lucky kiss.(:

iris

hatred!

2008-12-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

i seriously have no idea of what this people thinking.it seems like their brains are down in their ass!and is damn ass!bunch of J -U -V -E -N -I -L -Es, IDIOLTS!do u all think by those kinds of actions u can win us?please think twice k?asshole!CB!

dear god!please have a look out at these kids!punish them hard whenever they bully people!they are just a bunch of useless bums in the society..let them disappear in this world.they all dont belong to here!

iris

blog blog wo lai ye

2008-12-17T13:03:00.010+08:00

The blog is asking mi to blog lo..
hee its been so long since i last blog..
everytime is po po blog onli n always blog her sch stuff de.
i m not jealous lo but jus v lazi to blog.
anyway
this sat we r goin to get this!!

this is for po po! and i still haven decide my color yet.
weee our first phone together.
haa
guess she will be happi like pig after she got e fone.
ok now is some seekret pix time.
haa comparison of her room n my room.

Guess which one is her room n which one is mine?? haa
po po kan le dun angri oh
hee but jus wan to motivate u to clean up ur room more ah.
ermm end of our rooms comparison

this 2 pictures r my toys in office.
without them sure super bored
but e color cube already play till all color mix up le

Po po ah
ur mouth yao fast fast recover oh
if not sat i will help u recover okie?
my first post of e month n will definitely post another one soon. haa

with misses..

2008-12-16T20:38:00.003+08:00

father,u definitely know how much i misses u.how much i misses ur lame shits.how much i misses ur scolding.in total..i really miss u.please come back to us,will you?bring us with u,will u?the world dont seems to spin ever since the day u left..

iris

honey tea.

2008-12-11T22:15:00.003+08:00

went back to work today.feeling ok bah.but seriously i feel like sitting down and rest.dont really know what exactly happen to me.i might be looking well in front of ppl.but to be honest i'm panting all the way..it seems like a red light signal to me.saying that:iris.dont overwork or stress urself too much.try to give urself a break b4 u fall down and never wake up again..sigh.that's why i told zacky to handle the students instead of me handle.i'm tired of being what i am now..i really scare one day i will just sleep and never wake up again..=(i got this honey tea from kafaz!he came back to sch and do some appeal.then he know i'm sick and that's why he made me honey tea.is nice sia..love it.=)thanks thanks to the tea.appreciated.went to meet vivian later in the evening to pass her the cake for her father.didnt really talk much..seems like the distance btw us is getting more far le..sigh.guess i will stop here bah.got to go slp le.need more rest for new battle tml.nights.

iris

iris is sick

2008-12-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

didnt went to work today.feeling extreme weak upon waking up.think i had too much rain on my head that very mon bah.sigh.got to go.bye

how nice if everyday i would to be sick..how nice..

iris

Cheers.

2008-12-07T18:02:00.007+08:00

went to EC last night.it was a great experience for baby as he has never been to this kind of function last night.went there around 5 plus as reservation was at 6.lots of people already waiting outside sha villa.not bad huh..father was there too.so happy upon seeing him.he was wearing a bow tie and a so call scarf on his waist.look abit gay though.haha.took some pictures with ah pa.happy!headed to my seat with baby.haha.table 9(originally was table 4)love that seat.romantic.sft viknesh came to me say''iris,here is ur seat that u want with candles and roses.''haha.i got what u mean le ya?everything went quite smooth for the service staff.just that when the crowd starts to come in that time they tend to be very tense up.relax guys.everything is over.u did a good job.=)get to see kafaz and xiao di during the EC.chat a little here and there.the food for the EC was alright and i must say the kitchen staff indeed put in alot of effort in this EC.hope u all can score high.poo yan helen phyo and jacky came too.so happy to see them la.=)took pics with them.hee.after dinner went to watch movie-bolt.err..is nice la.but i nearly fell asleep half way through.did housekeeping today.long time never do le.forgotten alot of things.get to eat free breakfast.thanks shawn.i love sunny side up!=)tml housekeeping again.sian la.really wish i can stay at home and rest.regretted of promising miss raihan that i will help..=xkk..here are the pics.enjoy..
on the way for our dinner.

the so called roses that is on my table.=)

our drinks that is designed by the students.

the duck.

the soup.

sherbet.very nice.

miss them so much.

kafaz and me.=)

me.

him.

he made the heart shape for me<3

*did you notice there isnt any pics of the main course and the dessert?cause i ate it without remembered bout taking down the pics.oops.

iris

please tell me this is a dream..please,,

2008-12-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

''always remember i'm a fireman.i will rush to you when ur house got fire..no matter what''

i can still remember this sentence vividly in my mind..i was crying in front of u the very first week i join shatec.i told you i was scare that i will disappoint u by not doing a good job and this is the sentence u told me..u never failed to encourage me when i was down,upset with things around me.u are just like my real father..really a real father.i can still remember the day u scolded me badly in stewarding room.i didnt shed a tears cause i know u dont like and i understand that u wasnt in a good mood.at that point of time u said u want to throw me to chris loh and i pleaded u not to..u know i hated him lots and that's why u always gossip him in front of me.u taught me so much things..u taught me how to handle big functions..small functions..the students..and many many more.i know at times i always disappoint you..but believe me i never meant it.now u are gone..and i feel so empty out of a sudden.whenever there's a function in the morning,u will always come to the room and shout dumbies,where are you?i took a cab down today.reach sch around 7 plus..i sat at my fav chair waiting for the time to pass.suddenly feel so wierd.and i realise u have resigned and nobody will come to the room and ask for the dumbies.why dont u tell me urself?why didnt u answer when i asked do u have anything to tell me?all i wanted is to hear from u personally..i knew something is wrong with u on wed.u look extreme moody on that day and i even told u stupid chicken stories just to make u smile..and never did i know that that will be the last time i make u smile in sch..i wish it was a joke or nightmare from u to me..it might be another stage in life..but i just cant bring myself to face it..the moment u hug me that time,i cant help but to cry.the hug was so warm..and i know in ur heart u are crying too..i kept on convince myself to respect ur decision.and dont worry..i will try to..cause i know u love me and want me to become strong..dont worry about us k?i promise u that i will not disappoint u..and zacky too.go and have ur holiday..must enjoy k?u must be tired..i know..i will prayed hard to god.ask him to protect u wherever u go.dont forget me k?thanks for telling me that u love me deep deep..thanks..last of all..i love you.u are the greatest father in the world..

iris

wolf or gay?

2008-12-03T22:51:00.005+08:00

i swear father and ai ren definitely brighten up my day by discussing the wolf and gay story..=)today was busy with functions even though those functions were small.i must said that i'm struggling in the morning when both functions started at the same time.at times i really find that shatec ppl are really hard to please.tsk tsk.anyway after the afternoon function started,zacky and i were finally relieved.FINALLY no need to worry about the coffee break ready or not..haha.went to find sandra after the students gone back.was so surprised that she act stay near me.and is very near me.haha.when are we free to head out for fun?=)tml is finally the day for pearlin's group ec.all the best ya.dont be panicked upon seeing the guest ah.just try ur very best..=)jia you.and also all the best to the dcs group who is doing the ec tml..

baby,do u know how much i misses you?
how much i wishes u to hug me tightly?
how much i needed ur kiss on my forehead and say i love you?
if i were given another chance to choose who i wanna be with..
the ans will definitely still be u.
cause u are the reason that makes me smile and move on=)
i love you..

iris

teared.

2008-12-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

it wasnt a good day today ya..i dont really want to say what exactly happen today but i just hope today will be the last time i teared because of students.anyway thanks for the people who consoled me today.hmmx..will be going back sha villa for housekeeping this sun and mon .can be abit sian la.but sha villa really lack of manpower and that's why miss raihan call for our help.can understand.luckily baby can off on sat.if not dinner will be cancelled.rained very heavily today.my pants was drenched today lo.but walking in the rain with umbrella is nice.and i believe is even more nice without an umbrella.this kind of weather really made me thought of the past where i got no worries at all..i miss the days when i'm still young..time really fies man..how i wish i can turn the time back..i really wish i can....

iris

thank god is friday

2008-11-27T20:56:00.003+08:00

finally is friday.and there isnt any functions tml!yes!!!!can rest at home le.had this small function in sch in the late afternoon.is like boring can.have to wait till 5 then they finish everything.after which still have to set up the lobby for monday's function.dots right?luckily the students are willing to stay.thanks people.well..today i was being scare by this dcs student call mathew.i dont know how to describe the whole incident.and all i know was i got a shocked when he scared me.and ultimately my tears flowed out.coward me.please mathew.no more next time k!!!!!hmmx..think will stop here bah.nights people.oh ya.endure for whatever u all are doing k?i know there bound to be conflicts lying around but endure alright?just do well for whatever u all need to do..=)jia you.and zacky!i simply love you la.is not that kind of love but is this kind of love.whatever!haha.smoke less..is for ur own good.last 4 mnths together.endure.J.B!i got so much to talk to you..tata

iris

kept on smiling..

2008-11-26T22:53:00.005+08:00

out of boredness and that's why i made this.tada!is it nice?banquet is getting more and more boring.after so many things happened i realise i no longer looking forward to each day.did you all make me lose the faith or?i dont know.not gonna think about it.iris is tired of looking forward to each day when disapoinment kept on pouring onto her...

iris

many many thanks.

2008-11-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

just back from a function.tired as usual.leg pain as usual.nearly fall down alot of time due to my stupid apron.too long le la.or maybe i'm too short?WHATEVER.anyway we went art museum for this 80 pax function.is like alright la.compare to the other time the 1200 pax at NUS one.i must say this time round wasnt as good as the other time.forgotten quite a number of things.there wasnt any organization showed from me.end up chris loh had to come to me say:iris.as a sft u must organize your ppl well.which i think this is so true.i will remember to heart one.will improve in my next function.bringing back together with me to sch was tiredness.so many things to do..sigh.luckily i had a bunch of guys who were willing to head back to sch together with me just because they can claim off in leiu!realistic right?but alright la.still have to thank them..let me proudly announce them to you..

DHM:

jasemin tan & min hui :thanks for helping me to stay in sch.long day for ya.thanks thanks.
pearlyn & johnny :thanks for helping out in the function.we are having lots of fun this afternoon,arent we??hehe.

ricky & jon & danial lestar & fanil & brian & wei liang : am really glad when i saw u all there at the function.oh ya!nice to meet u brian!haha.and fanil!thanks bro for helping me to spy.u have been a great helper to me!=D oh ya,danial!i want pictures!!!

DTM:

pang boon & keith & nelson :thanks you so much for coming back to sch to help me.really appreciated.sorry to let u all keep on do sai kang.bo bian ah.pangboon!no more next time ah.u know what i mean.and nelson!seriously u gave me alot of craps today.but what i want to say is i've been tolerating..
randy & fernando : ur help are much appreciated.sorry that i cant help u all when u all are being called back to charcoal.rest well k?

in summarise,a really big thank you to the people i mentioned above.hopefully i didnt miss out anyone.they have been a great helper this afternoon..=)ok.shall stop here.got to sleep le..happy 23rd month anniversary.(:

iris

a little memories that flash across..

2008-11-23T18:53:00.003+08:00

a bunch of cute students.
miss them terribly
my bff in sch
airen and me!
we will always remain as one.(:

can i still put my trust onto u all?

2008-11-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

alot of things tend to happen within this one month.i wont go into details what exactly it is.but what i want to say is everyone has their limit of endurance.if u go beyond it..that's it.try to imagine what will happen after u go beyond it.i might be keeping quiet all this while but that doesnt mean i will remain quiet forever..count urself lucky that my friend didnt get sack.if he/she get sack on that day,i will make sure u suffer wherever u go.i mean what i said.this is iris.is either u respect her or u get lost of her world.always bear this in mind that there's always rules and regulation wherever u go..so dont try to mess around with her if not..

iris

immune with every little single thing..

2008-10-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

can i spell the word B O R I N G?i feel damn bored the whole day.nothing for the students to do.nothing for myself to do.sigh.cheryl came.haha.i super miss her can.even though i'm not close with her last time.but for the least i feel so comfortable gossiping with her now.hehe.my new favourite.remember to call me using charcoal phone ah.hee.i met up with baby last night.wasnt a good night ya.anyway i'm not going to talk bout it cause is really not a good night.went home straight after dinner.guess what was my first reaction when i step into the house.it was like OH MY GOD.is really dirty can.casue my house was undergoing the upgrading thing.i have to go down to my house toilet and bathe.no tv for me and also no sofa for me to lie around.sian la.will take down the photo for u to see how my house look like.oh yeah.i'm going for that conffin show tml!wee.happy la.but ah..my student told me is not nice sia.sure not..hmmx..baby.dont worry la.i know u dont like watching ghost show BUT u always seem to like ghost show each time u finish watching it.haha.is ok.i will protect u tml de.HAHA.ok la.i'm going to go back soon le.now i know the best place for me to rot in sch le.LIBRARY.hee.take care peeps.oh ya.J.B is back.i super miss talking to him.hehe.bye

Hope you like it

2008-10-30T03:48:00.003+08:00

I m realli v guilty today to make her cry again..
i suppose to protect her n make her happy instead she cried becoz of e way i handle things.
i will nv ever n ever do it again.
coz now i noe she is realli realli realli v hate mi do tt.

Po Po. Dun feel down anymore k?
i will realli nv ever do it again le.
jus now qk n gordon jio mi fri billard again.
i told them straight no le.
coz i noe tt day belongs to u means its u. n no other ppls.

Anyway i also wan to post a good news here.
i had became perm le.
startin from nov i will be workin 430 to 2 le.
timing looks quite stupid but i believe can earn more n more.
motive = earn money.
hee

nov comin soon le. dec faster come k?
coz i wan faster go holiday wif po po again.
hee

Po Po. Hope u like this new blog skin k?
i realli spend a little bit of time doin it de.
although e skin not i do one but is i choose one.
hee

Jia You Po Po! dun get bulli by those fatties n irraitin ppls anymore.
Mus Stand Up! and fight back them. Muack!
I will be givin u my courage n my strength. hee
although i dun hav much. but hope is enough.

Fri Fri Faster Come!
although i dun like to watch tt show but i will still watch for e sake of makin mi more brave.
haa

uneasy moments

2008-10-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

heard my mum said gmm went for operation again.the first thing was..what happen this time?she was talking to me that day and now..suddenly there's this urge that i feel like going back to see her.she is in kl now.i seriously dont mind going back alone.but i know my mum will object that.small aunt called.and she say her condition is stable now and ask my dad not to go back.god.she's my precious.you know how much i love her.please.she havent see finish the world yet.why must she undergo so much of this?i can feel that she is in pain now.please take away all her painfulness.god..i'm feeling very uneasy now.my heart is in a mess now.so much things happen.i feel like crying but i know i cant cry.i must learn to be strong.even when i'm in front of him.i must.gosh..tears rolled down my cheeks eventually.i dont wanna cry.gege say i must be strong.baby say he gets hurt whenever i cry.how?nothing must happen to her..please..

iris

dear fatty..

2008-10-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

Dear Fatty,

to be honest with u,i dont mind giving u back the scholarship and tearing away my contract.so what i got this scholarship without doing things that i like?u always say i got no choice,but to tell u the truth i do have.is just the matter of i want let go not.u made me cried badly today.i have never been scolded by anyone like this b4.i respect u and that's why i say u.i care for u and that's why i stop u from taking those things.if u really thinks that i cared the wrong way..then i'm afraid u dont know me well as ur student.u claim that u treated every SFT almost the same.but is that so?ask yourself this.yes.everybody has its diff characteristic.but is that the way u treated me?i cry is because u hurt my feeling.u said those unkind words to me.i cant help but kept on crying..i admit i'm a cry baby.but dont u think that u are too much today?so what i'm a SFT?so what i got that scholarship?it doesnt make me a special person.i dont ask for more but a fair treatment.u scolded zw today too.just because of a spoilt projector.is that the way a trainer should behave?are u sure we kept on irritates father?are u sure we talk rudely to the student?have u ever seen me and zw talking to the student?have u ever see how we ask them to do things?or have u seen how the student talk to us?if u are not with us,then dont talk cock with me.now i hated you.u no longer the one i respect.i wish that u will not appear in front of me anymore.like what mr johnny said.i'm a happy go lucky girl.i dont care much things.happy or sad i'm still iris.but today..u made things change.u really made me feel like quiting being a SFT.what's the point of continuing when u think that i cant do a nice job?if u really dont want to keep me then let me go..just let me go.iris is tired of being SFT.she is tired of treating ppl nice when ppl still complains about her...

failure iris.

to DTMs & DHMs

2008-10-12T21:26:00.003+08:00

just received a call from anthony.the first question that asked from him was..how's banquet sft?haha.and my replied was always the same.going to die soon.i guess is because he needed someone to scream at and that's why he called.we chatted for like 15 mins.we discussed mainly about the students that we came across.common thoughts ya.to fierce or not to be?to soft or not to be?millions of questions.i think mine is still not the worst but the outlets one..heard alot of stories from the students.but all i can say is..try to put urself in the SFTs shoes.we dont like to scold or gave nasty comments to u all one.but is out of no choice and that's why we got to do that.why would we scold or nasty to u?nothing better to do?it always starts with 2 hands.with one hand u think we can clap?we are all the same sch mates.we started the same time.and why would we want to make things difficult for u all?we are both on the same boat isnt it?so try to understand us.i know students dont like to comes banquet cause there are nothing for them to do.but no choice.no functions recently.and i guess for next week there will be lots of functions.so try to help banquet out k?we can be very nice to u all but first of all u muxt be nice to us too la.cannot everytime we nice then u all not nice la.like what i told w-----,after u show me attitude on that day,u think i'm feeling happy?i feel so lousy the whole day.u think being SFT is very fun?no.is not.we got our own stress too.like trainers gave us stress too.there are so much things for us to learn and we are still learning.so ya.this is all i want to say.i might not be soft anymore.if u guys still late for my banquet,i will still give DPs.cause u guys have been forgiven for too many times le..dont blame us k?
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love,do u know how much i missed you even though we get to meet each other that day?do u know why i wanted a necklace so much?cause i want to wear that to sch everyday.and whenever i misses u,i will touch it.is ok.next mnth i will get it de.love,i wish so much that i can hug u now and tell u,baby i misses u terribly.so much stress in sch and yet i didnt tell u cause i dont want u to worry.i miss u,my love,my baby,my yeye.and i promise no one will replace u even though there are lots of ppl entering my life each and everyday.i love u.我爱你。

with loves，
iris

i love you sia zhong wei

2008-10-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

So it was their 7th month anniversary and
the girl calls her boyfriend:

-Girl:
I love you.

- Boy:
Yeah I know everyone does!

-Girl:
Really?

- Boy:
Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls
tell me that everyday.

-Girl:
Oh...but am I only your friend?

- Boy:
No...you're my girlfriend...why?

-Girl:
So when I say I love you I really do mean it.

- Boy:
Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that
you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore
cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.

-Girl:
..........

- Boy:
So wanna go somewhere tonight
for our 7th month anniversary?

- Boy:
Yeah...where?

- Boy:
I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?

-Girl:
Ok.

- Boy:
Ill pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?

-Girl:
Ok. What time do you get off?

- Boy:
In 2 hours and then I gotta go home
and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 minutes...

-Girl:
hey...I thought you didnt have work today...

- Boy:
One of my co-workers called in sick.

-Girl:
Oh okay! So see you around 7:30 then?

- Boy:
Yeah! and babe?

-Girl:
Yeah?

- Boy:
I love you.

-Girl:
I love you too!

- Boy:
Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah....
i gotta go.

-Girl:
Ok bye.

- Boy:
Bye.

************************************************

2 hours later...

The guy drives to his girlfriend's house and
walks up to the door and rings the doorbell....

-Girl:
Hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)

- Boy:
Wadssup.....you ready?

-Girl:
Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?

- Boy:
Ok.

They both watched a movie and ate dinner...
once they were done eating, they headed back to the car but before she got into the car.......

- Boy:
Wait! Can I blindfold you?

-Girl:
Why??!?

- Boy:
Its a surprise..

-Girl:
What kinda surprise??

- Boy:
A big one.

-Girl:
Okay but only if you promise me tat you will hold
my hand while we're driving...

- Boy:
I promise.

-Girl:
Ok blindfold me.....

So they drove off.........and then they stopped....

- Boy:
Ok we're here!!
-Girl:
Where??

- Boy:
Wait let me walk you to the place!

-Girl:
What place??

- Boy:
Somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips..)

-Girl:
Baby!....

The boy walks her to the place....

- Boy:
Ok...let me take the blindfold off.

-Girl:
Where are we??

He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and
sees the view of the city and at tat same spot....
that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend....

-Girl:
Omg...! (tears rolls down)

- Boy:
Why are you crying?

-Girl:
This is where you first asked me out...

- Boy:
What are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...
behind him...in the air it says
'Will you marry me?' in fireworks)

-Girl:
(tears rolls down faster)

- Boy:
I wasn't at work when you called me...
I was planning this whole thing!

-Girl:
Get up!

- Boy:
Yeah?

-Girl:
(kisses him)

- Boy:
Is that a yes or a no?

-Girl:
Yes!

its me.

2008-10-12T01:59:00.001+08:00

i m alive.. weeee

did i really win this game?

2008-10-10T22:12:00.002+08:00

wednesday 8th october 2008

went to st james on wed.my first time.haha.didnt drink any alcohol cause my fellow friends know that i cant take any.somemore the next day i still gotta work.so..ya.basically,for the whole night i had 2 fruit juices only.cranberry and orange juice.please dont laugh at me k?hmmx..upon going that time i thought alot.to go or not to go.so what if i go?i guess things will still be the same even if i appear there.but thank god.eventually he created a miracle for me.i thought me and her would never be the same anymore.laugh loudly and gossip together.but..we did it that night.begining we were like quiet and never get to talk to each other much.but upon going home that time,things were different.haha.we craps like last time.gossip like last time.laugh and talk loudly like last time.i love that kind of feeling.is like i won the victory somehow.is this a dream or reality?i know somehow she has taken over me in ur heart but still i wish to be with you anytime when u needed someone to be with u.i promise.

thursday & friday 9th & 10th october 2008

nothing really happen on thurs is just that i'm super emotional on that day.gege came back to sch to pay his sch fees and then shun bian lai find me.touch huh.even though is shun bian.just want to say thanks gege.i will take ur words into my heart.until the last day of my attachment,it will no longer be endure but having fun throughout.overall u made me realise that it wasn't that bad to be in sch.at least i got to see chefs everyday.lol.that's all for thurs.fri will be like boring?haha.went to sch early cause got some coffee tea break.nearly get to fall afew times cause the apron was too long.sian.todays students were funny la.esp keith and nelson.haha.gay couple.make me laugh the whole day.nelson was in the same sec sch with me sia.haha.but i dont know him la.a funny guy.supposingly going to watch movie with cynthia today one.but no movies for us to watch la.so was cancelled.asked zw want go sing k..then asked casper along but he 8 something then fee.so cancelled too.so went home.at round 9 plus casper called and asked me to go city hall find him.i dont wish to go cause to me is like late le somemore i feel like sleeping at home than to go out.so i asked him to call zw see whether he is outside not.then mybe they can get to meet each other.for some reason i think he misunderstood what i say or he dont understand my chinese or whatever la.sorry.i'm pissed now.cause is not the first time he misunderstood me le.after 5 mins,he called back to me say zw will come out in 30 mins time.so ask me go and change and bla bla bla.i was like huh?i never tel you i want go out.i was just asking u to call and meet him.then u say i good la.and whatever shit.u got ur tantrum and so am i k?u want me to understand u then first of all can u understand me first not?and understand how i'm feeling rather than so harsh to me.i mean..ok.whatever.i dont know how to say le.is really angry when i'm been treated a few times.*ARGHH!!!i dont understand why i'm always the angry ones ah?why am i always the one then let ppl win?why ah?fcuk la!

dear zhen wen

2008-09-30T21:51:00.002+08:00

i'm banquet sft for like 2 days.and i'm not really in a mood to do things.cause..i dont know why.but thanks to zw.he kept on cheering me up by offering me soft drinks.maybe i'm still not ready for the banquet sft bah.god...please send me ur power to make me grow stronger,to leads me and to guide me.i really need ur help.really need.luckily tml is a holiday.and i think i'm gonna rest well.

notes to dear partner(u know who u are):

hey.thanks for enduring my temper this 2 days.sorry ah.i'm still trying my best to adapt to banquet life.and i can see that u've been adapting very well.anyway still thanks to you ah.so for the next 5mnths and 58 days,we got to rely on each other.and ya..continue to endure my nuisance and everything k?happy working with ya.=))and oh ya.i'm not da sao la.

iris

a brand new start

2008-09-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

i'm in sha villa now doing nothing.just finish cleaning Rm205 with kelvin.my favourite room.that stupid kelvin damn lazy sia.anyhow do the bed.but well..he's not that bad.i asked someone to go up and do but she refused.Fcuk!never mind.at least kelvin helped me.today was my last day seeing my classmates and also the sirs.super sad.thank godness that i'm able to survive during this 13 weeks.i must confessed that i learnt alot of things and also see alot of things.whatever it is..life will be a brand new tml onwards.think back is also not that bad to be banquet sft.for the least i will get to learn alot of things.hereby i wanna thank this few person..

Rosette(4weeks)
--------------------
Mr aw:thanks for teaching me so many things.and also thanks for fighting the chances for me even though it wasnt a success one.

Miss Lee:Thanks for ur kindness.please take ur meals on time k?u are just like a mother to me.=)

Uncle choo:haha.i dont know what to say to you sia.but anyway..stop nagging away when the new batch comes k?dont kan qiong.everything will be ok one.

Uncle wong:hee.dont always scold the students la.they are just playful but they are very cute one.smilex..

Charcoal(3 weeks)
------------------------
mr chow:time was short in charcoal and yet u teached me so many things.i will never forget the day u taught me how to make latte.and also how to make the pao pao so soft.thanks.=))

Sha villa(4 weeks)
------------------------
Mr ithin:sir.me and mickey not husband and wife la.hahahaha.i dont know what kind of person u are.but i certainly knows that u have build up my confidence in front office.u make me know that time makes me learn.thanks for always praising me.thanks.

Mdn:hello mother.i'm leaving soon.you take care alright?i will miss u de.thanks for teaching me how to wash toilet.hahahaha

seriously i really miss the days when i work with these people.looking forward working in banquet.like what jamie says..is not that bad actually.and yes..i've already think through.thanks.

Iris.

silence night..

2008-09-24T03:45:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.been long enough since my last entry.i'm lazy alright.hmmx..doing my night shift now with keneth & poo yan.the both of them were sleeping in the back office.left me and the security playing com.received a bad news from zw saying that i will be in banquet.i cant cool myself down when i saw that msg.i mean why me?millions and zillions of question marks are in my head now.tears dropped when i get to know the news.though it may mean nothing to ppl out there.but it means lots to me.signing up for this sft thing is because i wish to learn more things from trainers out there and expose to more things too.the complaints,cashiering and bla bla bla.but why am i choose to be in banquet?sorry zw.though i kept on say it will be absolutely fine if i'm in banquet but my heart really cant accept the facts.hoping for miracles.really.a silent night that makes me feel so alone.a silent night that makes me think so much.a silent night that makes me feel so depressed.a silent night that makes me feel like crying...is so silent..baby came to my mind.i misses his hug so much..baby,why am i the one?why...

iris

my bdae ended lo..

2008-09-08T01:11:00.025+08:00

weee
todae is monday le.
8th of sept
1 hr past my bdae le.
its a special bdae this yr! haa
coz i earli cele wif my dearest n most beloved po po.
hee
we cele on thurs where we both had off.
hee
firstli!

guess where is this place! hee.
not easi to guess where this photo is taken oh
hee
anyone can guess correctli jus msg mi i cfm chop giv u a big present.
next will be

this is our happiness after eatin finish a lot of foods
haa
got free one and got nid pay one also.
weeee

weeee
hotpot culture at marina square.
quite a lot of ppls
but e set a bit sianz.
see for urself.
haa

after tt we went for the weeeee
high high in e sky!

hee guess wat tix we holdin?

tts how it look like inside.
quite big n quite comfortable.
lucky not many ppls
can walk ard n see all views

nice nice ma??
all i take one hor
hee
now is those pix i love most on e cabin le.
hee

more more more!!

and finalli
the thing i wanted most and tot dun hav le.
i realli wan to thx her for making it happen and making the cake.
its e nicest oreo cheese cake i ever had le.
seriousli.

For my dearest po po:
Realli thx for making this day happen for mi.
with you in my life.
i am realli very happy already.
i do not ask for much de.
i jus hope my wish will come true.
and my wish is to see u always happy
my wish last yr is e same
every yr will be e same.
coz i realli like to see a happy po po.
Thx again po po for doin all these for mi.
i realli appreciate it and i will not forget it de.
but dun forget oh!
we still owe each other a bdae present.
once we got money!
we will buy and giv to each other okie?
muack!
i love you.
from: ur da bian ye ye.

weee tts all for my bdae le.
its past 2 hrs my bdae le.
goin to slp n workin tml again.
but tues i m definitly goin to enjoy my day wif po po.
hao qi dai tues faster come oh.
hee

bf is stupid

2008-08-26T13:11:00.002+08:00

hello.hehe.i'm finally on my one week break le.finally i can have a good rest.anyway bf is tupid today.and he is really stupid.haha.got to go for movies le.will blog tonight.
P.S:i love ur stupidness=)

its finalli break again!!

2008-08-20T12:51:00.005+08:00

weee todae is wed
and its my off day!! hee
waitin for so damn long for e off to come one
tmd
arrr i lost my workin pass
also dunno where i dropped it
damn sianz
$50 fly away le
called bedok n clementi interchange also cannot find
ARRRR waste my money
this mth de anniversary cannot celebrate wif po po again
becoz it falls on sunday den i hav to work
haizz
but lucky i mon n tues off
most likeli can celebrate wif her!
yeah yeah yeah!
recentli had made a few pix
quite nice oh!!

hee hao kan ma??
who wan me to teach u how to make this pix pls tell mi
haaa

weee!
too bad this one i dun like coz cannot adjust the positions one
tmd.

i like this pix!! hee
the doremon is fuckin cute n oldsch
i tink sg can find tt is miracle lo!
haa

ok tts all for todae le.
tml goin find po po play bubble tea lo!
weee
off is so good!!

i will blog tml.

2008-08-14T00:01:00.004+08:00

i'm tired today.i guess i will blog tml.anyway i was nearly fainted because of a person.i was been station together with him.and this bloody hell did not even help me with anything.he was like doing some other things.and i was alone doing all the serving and...etc.one word for him.FUCK!though he's 30 over years old,i dont give a fuck damn on him lo.since u dont respect me then why should i?words for him:glenn.let me warn you.iris ng huiting is not a person that u can fool around.u step onto my tail i will make sure u get something back.try fooling around with me one more time.you want to help me then u help,if u dont want then u fuck off.dont show me attitude like as if telling people that u are the senior here and i ought to respect u.sorry.no such things in iris's world.u want,u respect her.and ultimately she will respect u back.if not then get lost of her sight.do you know why other people in the restaurant dont respect u?have u do a reflection on urself?you are in 2004 batch.and why until now,you havent graduate?come on.wake up ur ideas lo.seriously i do pity u when the first day i saw u been bullied by the ladies over there but after today..is a big big no.you dont deserve people to pity u.and yes,you dont done deserve any respect at all.idiot.
P.S:i dont mean to vent my anger here.but i really dont know where to shout out my anger.and i guess when u all see this guy,you all will sure feel like bashing him.i swear.

Time will pass, ppls may change, but their heart will be the same.

2008-08-13T16:13:00.018+08:00

po po
as u had said
ppls r changing
i admit i had changed
i dunno for myself is change to worse or change to a good me.
from the day i noe u till now i had changed a lot of things.
everyone ard me can see it and they noe it
however i noe none of them will be able to see n noe what had changed inside my heart
onli mi myself noe it
may be what i say u wun believe it coz u r not me
or may be what i say u believe and u know it..
since 24th dec 2006 and way way b4 that when e first time i chatted wif u and noe u
i rmb that me is still so stupid n done so many dumb things.
although from that time till now i still like to play game
but my like and my amount of time spend on game has decrease since then already.
its becoz i got more priority things to spend my time on.

hee this is the first picture we took at esplanade rooftop. haa if i nv rmb wrongli we onli been there twice.
ok back to the previous statement.
my priority things are mainly consist of you and work now.
i noe sometimes i said things and i nv do it.
it realli make u feel disappointed in me.
i m sry for tt..
but mostli if i m unable to do it, i will always still do something to replace it temporary and make u not feelin so disappointed..
if u nv realized, its fine coz the things i had done r not that memorable after all..
anyway.. i believe i had realli changed a lot
but i still believe my heart for u had nv changed. i still put a lot of priority on you as i believe spendin time wif u.. most of e time i enjoyed it a lot.

still rmb this??
if i nv rmb wrongli.. i believe its at ur house the kopitiam there one. on that day u r sick but u still wan to eat chicken rice and i still hav to let u eat in e end coz i noe u will be like that face when i let u eat.
haa
ermm i guessed i had always said the same things.. coz i m realli not that kind of guy who can talk well infront of girls and can impress them one..
whenever i m infront of a girl.. i will always be super duper quiet n i cant find any words to say one..
take e example of my last meetin wif my classmates at holland v which i had told u one.
e whole nite i nv say much. my fren keep say i tio stun and become not like my usual self.
i told them its my character ba.. i realli cant tok much infront of girls one..
onli u.. i can tok so much and even act like my usual self which i always like..
i can tok freeli, joke and even say vulgar.. i dun mean i like to say vulgar but i realli feel like myself when i m wif u..
ok now lets tok abt u le..
i rmb startin when u noe mi u dun like a lot of things of mi..
like i smoke ah, i play game ah, i always go out wif qk dey all ah, i always late slp ah, i always meet u late ah and a lot more la.
i tink i had changed quite a lot out of all these le ba..
some i believe is still a need for our lifes one like meetin wif frens.
anyway i wan to say one is u had changed to better le. i still say u r stubborn but u r not le.
ur temper is gettin better le. ur stubborness r gettin lesser le. ur unreasonableness r gettin lesser also le.
i realli mean it when i type here and not jus wan to let u happi when u see all these.
ok.
i had always wanted to say this to u.
u r the kind of girl i like i believe i cant find anyone same as u le.
u may not believe wat i say but i m workin hard to let u believe it. so dun giv up on mi and i will prove to u wat i say is true de.
ok i tink i said a lot le.. ermm i will post some photos recentli one ba.

jia jun, yuu ru, mi n po po
we at the zoo! it rains on that day but luckily we already plannin to go home le.

hee these pix r taken when we went back to popo's ah ma hse at si wan. we found a lot old sch tibits there lo n enjoyed a lot eatin those junk foods. hee

This is our latest trip to east coast park!
although its not planned at all coz last min i jus wanted to meet po po.
i wonder had she eaten all the 5 small n 1 big packs of potato chips a not. if she did i tink she is realli "PIG!"
hee
hao ba
tts all for my blog this time le.. i will try to update the blog more n put more pictures. if can i will upload video if hav. hee
lastli i wan to say.
I LOVE YOU PO PO!

naive me.

2008-08-12T11:51:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.is me.urm..i thought this blog of ours will never be an interest of anyone until last night when someone told me he's looking at my blog and i was like..you sure?haha.anyway thanks to whoever reading this blog.i'm having afternoon shift for this entire week.and the time passes so slow..sigh.i misses the days in rosette.so much fun over there..anyway i will be going back SOON.so ya..i called 2 polys today.asking whether if i could apply to their sch using my shatec cert and the gpa i got.and guess what..the 2 sch replied me the same thing.and i was like..haha.naive me.how can i apply for government poly with private cert?they need at least an ite cert.not shatec.naive iris..the future aheads of me is like..total blankness.i dont know what to do after graduation next year.is like..BLANK.sigh..got to go le.wish me luck..

iris.

summarise.

2008-07-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

ok.i will be summarise everything in bullentine forms.

PS.been busy with trainings.therefore never blog.
went to rosette restaurant for 4 weeks trainings.
trainers there nice but the students there sucks to the core.
having a one week break now.been resting.
got to know that i'm one of the tiger scholars.
not very happy bout the result though.cause is abit unfair.in fact is very unfair.
preparing myself to be a SFT
am fine with dalton.just that i always bully him.
my birthday wasn't a happy one.
wish for a better birthday next year
trying to revive my friendship with her.but somehow..i failed.
am i a loser?
trying to improve myself to a better person.
my com nearly died few days ago.
then i realise i cant leave without my com.
been watching命中注定我爱你。
super nice.cried alot while watching it.
went to amk to find姐妹。
miss him like shit.
i'm no longer a 小富婆after paying my fees today.

i guess that's all what i want to say le bah.take care peeps.

1 wk had past so fast..

2008-07-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

ermm 1 wk had past lo
i been workin for 5 days le.
hee e work is still ok ba
jus tt during fri when i first hav live calls wif customers, it was realli v v stress n i m super gan cheong..
hope i can slowli suit e job.
ermm nx wk goin to training le.
its at haw par where i dunno i how to go also.
my colleagues i tink dey noe ba.
ermm hope e trainin will be fun.
po po also workin v hard these few wks.
hope she wun lei huai le oh
jia you po po!
muack!

weee todae is fun haa!

2008-07-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

weee todae went to si wan wif po po and my mum.
haa its realli quite funni lo.
a lot of things happen n i realli enjoy it.
although we nv go much place but i can see my mum is quite happi le
happi to bring her out n hope more chances to bring her out.
hee
ermm took a few photos tml zhai put up.
anyway tml i goin work lo!
hee my first day.
n i hope it will go smoothly.
hee thx po po for todae!
muack!

i nid to work!!

2008-06-30T22:38:00.003+08:00

arrr goin to 1 mth no job le.
sad..
po po has already start her attachment at roxette le. e shatec hotel there i tink
ermm quite a ok timing ba
3 - 11pm is good i tink coz can slp longer but her place there under renovation. hope wun disturb her.
ermm todae she is so unlucky lo..
haa cannot find her bow tie and had to take a cab down to aljunied to buy one n take bus den take mrt again..
quite suay sia..
but i tink her job todae quite ok one
so its not realli tt suay day la
muack! got suay jiu hui you heng heng de shi hou k??
ermm i tml earli mornin had to wake up le. for e starhub interview.
hope successful coz i realli nid a job le..
i dun mind do watever job but no sales n hope salary not tt bad..
but jus cant find. tmdz..
hope tml is e day. hee
po po tml hui heng heng de! muack! i will hav to slp earli tonite. hee

20th bdae!

2008-06-26T00:17:00.006+08:00

ermm i tink this is e time when i realli fail as a good bf le..
everyone got giv po po bdae present but i nv..
arrr no money is realli damn sian la!!
i realli nid a work asap ahhh...
ermm yest went out to celebrate bdae wif po po
its her 20th bdae!
she is 1 yr older lo but her thinkings is still like small kid.
stubborn n sometimes ben ben de.
haa jk jk!
ermm actualli plan to go buy a bear for her but she dun wan..
so we went ard places to look for present but in e end also nv buy coz e one po po wan is not in good condition..
anyway realli feel very very super mei you yong..
i realli hate this feelin of useless n cant do anything for po po..
ermm tts y i felt so sad n keep quiet.. coz i was tinking how to make it up for u when i got my first salary..
i realli realli wan to make u happi todae de.. i mean yest..
dui bu qi oh..
ermm but i will sureli giv u something good for my first salary payout.
tml po po is goin msia le.
goin to miss her for these few days..
realli will miss her a lot a lot!
ermm hao ba
post some photos of her bdae.

anyway po po. happi bdae n happi anniversary.
i owe u a big big present.
n i will get it for u when i get my first pay. hee
muack! wo ai ni bao bei!

happy birthday iris ng hui ting!

2008-06-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

a few minutes towards 12 will be my birthday.nothing to say bout that.really..i just wish that my life will be filled with peace and silence.simplicity is what i want.happy birthday iris.happy forever k...

johor is fun

2008-06-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

exam is finally finished.no longer need to see those unwanted faces anymore.thank god is finally!yeah!went to johor with my new cliques.and it was damn damn fun.we spent less than 30 ringits(for each person)that day.can you imagine we spent the $$$ on karaoke,snacks,transport and dinner.so is damn cheap!haa.i really enjoyed myself ytd.it was fun.i've decided to go back ah ma house on wed.i know you are not coming back with me.and i said i wont force u.cause..no point.like i said..i dont want to pick a fight with you anymore.very sick of it.end up it is always the same show.感情讲的是包容。虽然你的拒绝使我感到很失望，但我不会因为这样而逼你。像我今天所和你说的，我不想和你吵架，但我恳请你了解我的感受。我知道我每次都很霸道但这次就请你再给我霸道最后一次。。我没办法把我自己放在你的角度来看。。真的没办法。。请你了解我为何失望。承诺是你一次又一次给我的。。所以我不想再有任何的承诺。我的心已无法再包容任何一个承诺了。。。打这篇文字的时候，我的心是痛得。。真的痛。。

fri le..

2008-06-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

haiz.. fri le still no work..
been lookin for a job for so long le..
its not i nv find..
i realli went to a lot places le..
ermm hope nx wk can get one
wo zhen de a bit mei yong...
po po goin to johor todae wif her classmates
mus be xiao xin ah..
a bit worry..
mus faster come back k?

i'm not happy at all..

2008-06-18T16:02:00.002+08:00

today is the 3rd day i'm struggling for my exam.2 more to go and i will be free from stress.jia you.today i received the biggest birthday present from my school.i'm not going to mention what is this here.i finally got it.and of course i feel very happy.but that is only短暂的快乐..seriously i've been asking myself so what you got it?does it make u a happy person?no.it does not at all.i called her once i part off with my sch mates.i wanted so much to share with her.i wanted her to be happy for me.i wanted her congrats.i wanted her to know i did it.but when i heard her saying..'orh'.my heart sank to the core.i know time has make us go apart.i miss her.i got so much to talk to her.i wanted to tell her..hey i miss u super much you know.i wanted so much to apologize to her saying i'm sorry for not spending time with you.i wanted so much to meet her up for gossiping..i wanted so much to hug her saying you will be fine.you got me right..that is what i wanted so much..i failed in maintaining my friendship with her.i've failed badly.so what i'm the top 3 in class?so what i did flying colors for my exam?i'm not happy at all.i'm not..i hate what i am now.i hate.why am i not the first to be with her when she is sad?why????i miss her god..

kungfu panda is nice nice!

2008-06-12T13:49:00.003+08:00

hee yest went to watch kungfu panda wif po po!
ermm we went amk hub to watch coz po po hav kbox session wif her classmates at there b4 watchin movie.
haa e movie is realli nice n almost e whole show is funni lo
luff till siao
ermm but po po is v tired due to her exam n kbox. but i guess she also enjoyed e movie a lot
haa
ermm po po ah
abt ur attachment thing i dun mean tt contact lense is not good
coz i noe wearin spec sometimes can cause problem while working de.
but i hope when u earn money le den start spendin coz e contact lense is not realli cheap.
hope u understand k?
muack!
anyway my interview todae is fine
i lie a lot coz she ask mi abt my further study n i say no
den she ask mi y den i say i wan build my career in the company.
haa
den she ask mi bad experience wif customer during my attachment last time
den i anyohow make a story out
hee
li hai hor
realli hope i can get e job coz realli nid money now.
hee
i also pray u can get e scholarship :)
but if u dun.. pls dun get too upset k? u r still e best in my eyes. muack!

i m so so so so hAPPY!

2008-06-06T14:57:00.003+08:00

its like nv tt i have this feeling.
its e first time n i realli love it.
its like i hav gain back something so precious n nothing can buy it one.
I M SO HAPPY!
thx u po po n i will love u forever! n ever!
good luck for ur safti dinner tonite. hope everything will go smooth for u.
muack muack muack!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess..

2008-06-06T11:06:00.003+08:00

i just wanna say..you are still mine.and that will be forever.sorry for yesterday.i know you didnt sleep the whole night feeling heart ache all over.so am i feeling heart ache all over.you are always my yeye and i will always be your..popo.muacks.love you lots.

done by po po.. n mi...

2008-06-05T20:11:00.011+08:00

all r so nice so nice..
i realli luv it..
i noe she luv them too..

i do love you afterall..

2008-06-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hey..is me.Is being so long ever since my last blog.so many things happen this period of time.and i realise alot of things.got my GPA today.waited for so long.and i thought i can get at least a 3 but..i got 2.86.i'm not surprise by that.cause i know that iris ng hui ting didn't put in effort during that exam period.but i'm abit upset.cause that makes ppl know that iris is actually not that fantastic.=(i didn't show my upset out cause is no big deal.to ppl 2.86 is already very good but to me it sucks to the core.sigh.transcript is here and there goes my scholarship.=(goodbye my beloved scholarship.PROJECTS!!!i hate projects!i damn fucking hate it!!!i got no time and heart to do it.and that makes my poor darling got to do it.and because of the project things we argue alot and also giving alot of lan jiao face to each other.theme party projects is because i got difficulty doing slide show and the music.then for the guest info project is because i had some f*&%$ in my group.sigh.is alright la.is already over le.darling.sorry ah.keep on quarrel with you and also threw temper to you.i didnt mean it in my heart de.but sometimes really quite irritating.sorry bout that..just wanna say..i do deeply in love with you after a year plus and i believe we will last forever.thanks for making me yours=)

with love&kisses,
dear dear

sports day is fun!!

2008-06-04T15:30:00.002+08:00

hee i luv sports day!
yest went to po po hse there to play badminton
haa quite fun to play wif them although not that challengin la
but its still v funni lo
haa coz po po always cant hit those high high balls
den i keep purposeli hit high high den she will miss n stand there luff
haa
realli v fun!
den her bro also v funni one lo
always ball drop on floor still go hit
hee i wan to play badminton wif them again!
after badminton we went for a short jogging
ermm at first dey dun wan jog one lo den i force po po
den her bro also join us after a while
hee its quite shiok after joggin n drink bubble tea
but todae whole body start to ache le sia
pain a bit.
ermm po po jus msged mi abt her transcript
its ok de popo
u realli did quite well le even when u nv study much
i m realli proud of u le
jia you jia you!
ermm most likeli goin to meet po po to go big book shop at my hse here later
hee

abt todae..

2008-05-30T00:44:00.002+08:00

po po.. its not i dun wan to listen to u..
i realli feel tt when its time to play i play n when its time to work i work.
although the timing is wrong. i shdnt play till so late every time but po po.. my circle of frens always play at nite n not in e day..
i also enjoy playin at nite n when i m tired i go to slp n i can fall aslp easily..
it may seem like a excuse but its truth.
po po..
can let mi be like this?
i noe u r concern abt mi but i realli like this way..
i m not stubborn..
i m jus doin wat i like to do n its not something real bad..
i do drink water a lot daily.
i do slp enough b4 i wake up.
i tink when young mus realli enjoy life n do wat u like..
po po i noe u will sureli get v angri becoz u tink its bad for my health n u r concern abt mi but i m like not caring abt myself n jus wan to play game..
but po po i onli hav this real hobby n i realli like it.
its like people who luv to do something they like always or daily.
its a hobby although its not a real healthy one.
i noe u will say i nv say u cannot hav a hobby but u mus do it at e right time..
but po po.. during the day time i nv play much games n even if i play i nv play wif my frens. so mostli at nite is e time we play together..
po po hao ma?
dun talk abt this issue anymore k?
we will sureli quarrel abt it again de..
i m sry n i will slp earlier. 1 - 2am k?
i promise u.
nv later dan 2am.
i promise u this. n i will nv break it.
i also noe u dun trust my promise anymore le..
coz i always promise but nv do..
but i m always tryin my best.
i realli wan to make myself trustable person.
po po xiang xin wo hao ma?
i nv wan to make u angri.. i nv wan to make u sad..
i onli wan to make u happi every single day when i m still there.
my life since tt day i met u is i already noe le.
u r e one i m lookin for.
from tt day onwards.
i nv get angri becoz of u.
i always wan to be happi infront of u no matter wat happens.
i always try my best to make my promises come true.
i will always wan to be there for u when u nid mi.
no matter wat quarrels we had, i will always wan to make e situation better again..
i realli luv u n i nid u po po..
u still rmb why i call u po po n u call mi ye ye??
becoz we wan to be together until old when u r realli po po n i m ye ye..
dun be angri n trust me again po po..
i m still e ye ye u noe mi e first day.
wo ai ni.

yeah yeah yeah!

2008-05-26T12:43:00.001+08:00

yeah yeah!! po po is back todae lo!!
hee
i goin out wif mum to si ma lu pray den after tt go sls buy e sd card.
weeee! but its super hot outside ah!!
yeah yeah po po kuai hui lai!!

its a boring wkend..

2008-05-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

arrr
po po went back msia le
tml den comin back! yeah! hee
ermm
yest i went to ran at gombak stadium
haa i m goin to be hardworkin!
i mus cut weight n be fit fit!
ermm now whole body achin le
hao xiang someone can help mi massage
hee
po po like nv help mi massage b4 hor!
haa
hao xiang po po ah..
jus now she call mi den i call back her using e phoenix card
but she ah
goin to slp le den call mi
den i keep halo halo halo she also wun reply
jus sometimes reply a bit say i v irraitin wif e halo
haa
but finalli i halo until she woke up n she go bath
quite useful lehz my halo halo halo
haa
tml po po come back shd be evenin time le
guess meet her on tues will be better coz tml she sure v tired de
i wan go sing k! wif po po! hee coz i realli like to listen to her singing!
hao hao ting oh
todae did nth but game game. but i go try find jobs le
nx wk mus send resume le.
hee
hao ba
po po faster come back oh. i realli realli miss u a lot.
its like 7 days nv see u le. tml will be 8th day le!!
arr seem so near but yet so far.
haa
hao ba
tues we shall meet k?
muack!

from e "ye ye tt is missing u".

friday..

2008-05-16T18:15:00.004+08:00

po po ah
sry lehz
i m realli quite sian diao abt my face becoz its realli a bit ugli ah
i later after finish chargin the camera batt i will take one pix n let u see
ermm todae quite a tiring day also..
yest slpt at 1+ den wake up at 6 to eat breakfast..
den went to slp until 11+ eat lunch n after tt went to dental ffi at safti.
cb its realli damn long n the place is super far.
reach ard 130 end ard 4.
after tt came home n found out of the face blood clot.
den i realli sian diao n i feel like stayin home le..
sry po po..
i realli sry n i will make up for it nx time k?
this mth we will sureli go cycle n relax at ecp k?
muack!
sry for always last min tell u something else instead of wat i say earlier on.
forgiv mi n dun be angri k?
later i will post the pix here.